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yes the detached, unreal feeling is quite common for me. i get to the verge of tears, where they just sting my eyes and make my throat hurt, but generally i don't cry. couldn't even cry at my mother's funeral, how horrible is that? i do cry sort of when i am uncontrollably angry, though. leave it to me to have my wires crossed so bad. i can cry when angry but not when devastatingly sad???? something i have never understood ******************************
The Lights of Our Hearts
written by lostgurl
dedicated to Chris Benson
Sept. 4, 1984 – Aug. 18, 2008
The lights of our hearts have dimmed today,
for with God's calling you went away.
The newest angel to sit by his side,
has brought to his eyes a gleam of pride.
But what of us whom you've left behind?
Within earthly chains we remain confined.
Rage, confusion, and despair whirl in rapid haste
from the brutal reality we are forced to face.
Seemingly trapped within an infinite void,
full of painful tears impossible to avoid.
To turn back time is our unwavering dream,
when our heartache is at its most extreme.
Nothing in the world could ever take the place
of your laugh, your smile, or your warm embrace.
But we must find a way to continue on,
to make a new life without our beloved son.
Through the darkest of tunnels we trod ahead,
regretting petty angers and I love you's unsaid.
I pray for the day we may find some solace.
Perhaps when we meet in God's great palace. |
