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So this is my second group that I've joined today. Wow. Pretty sure the Panic and the OCD are connected. Ummmmmm....well I have to say that OCD has made things a lot harder on me then the Panic because well the panic attacks come and go ( I go years without) but the OCD is there always and its seems thats it has ALWAYS been there. I've not been to a docotor for this because: I was raised in a family where my parents don't believe in mental health issuses...weird is more the word they use lol...I can't afford a therapist...and it's only been a couple years since I've realized whats going on: what it was. Also I'm very independent in that sense...I don't want d drugs... Ha I soooo just OCD'd on the last sentence. So I've probably had every kind of obsession. Numbers mainly. 4's and 8's...but now I avoid 7's and 4's. I'm more on 3's and 5's...I used to avoid 5's. My most troubling memory of OCD was when I was like 12? and me and my dad were shearing sheep and idk what I had to count in my head but it took like a LONG TIME! for me to get it done and I was just so frusterated and crying and ugh ugh UGH! I HATE OCD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate having something that consumes me in that way! 2 people know about it...cuz I got high and told them..and they aren't even important people! OCD has saturated my life and early this summer I decided enough was enough well ha that didn't last long and I have good days and bad days and yeah I want this gone. PLEASE HELP 20 years of this (I'm 20!) is enough...I want to know how to get rid of it because I've found it very hard to just go cold turkey on something thats been a part of my life for a long time. 
P.S. I'm not a neat freak like most OCD people...being messy is my only FREEEEEEDOM! Post edited by: pigchic, at: 08/31/2008 14:24 I!!!!!!!! am the ONLY one who can set MYSELF free!
“You do not drown by falling down in a puddle; You drown by not picking yourself back up.”
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