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01/17/2012 09:36 PM
orenotter
orenotter
 
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Hi, everyone. It's Tim Peters, AKA ChAoS oTtEr. I know I don't chime in much, but with everything that's going on, I figured as long as I'm here, I may as well say something.

First, I'm fine. Yes, I have split again. John and I are waiting for the right time to merge again, when things settle down a little. Right now, it's kind of painful. In case you're wondering, no, the split hasn't brought back the stutter, but I am left-handed again.

I'm worried about my wife. She used to be so full of fire. Now she barely surfaces at all. She says she's all right, but she also says she feels empty and fadey. Even her other half, Tor, hasn't been saying or doing much.

We did attempt a merge with Oren and Fnaire last week. It was to be temporary, just to see how long we could hold it. We had to split again because our daughter was getting freaked out, fearing we wouldn't come back. I promised her that we wouldn't merge again until she was ready to let us.

So that's it for now. Thanks for listening. And though I may not say much, I do read your posts. Thanks for letting me be a part of this place.

-Tim ChAoS oTtEr

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01/23/2012 06:15 AM  Top
Sundrop
Sundrop
 
Posts: 1220
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Hi Tim, it's nice to hear from you. How do you feel coming in and out of a merge? How is it painful?

Is it your goal to eventually merge with Oren, I guess after you have remerged with John? Is it the goal for all of the children to merge also? I'm sorry this process freaked your daughter out, it must be hard for a child to see her father combining and changing before her very eyes.

Thank you for saying hello while you were around, it's always good to hear from all of you.

Sunny

I don't know if
I'm early or late
What is the date??
Maybe some year
I'll get this straight
Caramel for breakfast
Sugar shock
I watch the clock
Tick tick
Tock tock
I run up
You run down
Then back around
We are falling
To the ground
Pick me up
Turn me loose
I am glad
You are amused...
S. Summers

Previous discussions I participated in:
Forgiving
pregnant and looking for advice
John is back

01/25/2012 07:06 PM  Top
orenotter
orenotter
 
Posts: 1139
Group Leader

Tim, Oren and Savvat have merged into the current Oren. I'll post more on this later.
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01/27/2012 08:11 PM  Top
Sundrop
Sundrop
 
Posts: 1220
Group Leader

Hey Oren how are things going? How have you been feeling since he recent merge with Tim and Savaat to create your current self. How much of yourself do you feel like?

Sunny

I don't know if
I'm early or late
What is the date??
Maybe some year
I'll get this straight
Caramel for breakfast
Sugar shock
I watch the clock
Tick tick
Tock tock
I run up
You run down
Then back around
We are falling
To the ground
Pick me up
Turn me loose
I am glad
You are amused...
S. Summers

Previous discussions I participated in:
Forgiving
pregnant and looking for advice
John is back

01/30/2012 11:01 PM  Top
orenotter
orenotter
 
Posts: 1139
Group Leader

I feel weird. I can't think of any words to describe it, but I think "overstuffed" would come closest.

It's hard to say how much of myself I feel like, because it's all me, and yet... I feel kind of like Prime. Prime is a superhero who is a 13-year old boy. He creates a massive super-muscled body around himself and his old body sort of gets lost inside.

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01/31/2012 05:46 AM  Top
Sundrop
Sundrop
 
Posts: 1220
Group Leader

I imagine it would feel like you but also foreign in many aspects. I've often wondered what a real merge would feel like even though the idea is terrifying to me. The temporary merges make me feel so out of my element I don't know that we could handle more.

Sunny

I don't know if
I'm early or late
What is the date??
Maybe some year
I'll get this straight
Caramel for breakfast
Sugar shock
I watch the clock
Tick tick
Tock tock
I run up
You run down
Then back around
We are falling
To the ground
Pick me up
Turn me loose
I am glad
You are amused...
S. Summers

Previous discussions I participated in:
Forgiving
pregnant and looking for advice
John is back
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