Multiple Personalities Support Group

In another thread, a few of you said that antipsychotic drugs made your DID worse. While I have no intention of taking antipsychotics, it made me wonder if there are any known methods of achieving greater separation. I know this must sound backwards to most of you, but it's what I want. I want to be an individual, not part of someone else.

-Fnaire

Fnaire,I do not know of a safe way to separate yourselves or even think it would be advisable to try. For me the antipsychotics made me cycle rapidly, 4-6 alters an hour, freaking out alters who had no idea where what who when, NOTHING. It was so awful for everyone.

There is also a fine line with Klonopin for me, if I take too much some alters who are really not supposed to be out slip by and usually do something ridiculous. I am supposed to take 6 mg of klonopin a day but I cannot stand so much. I weaned myself way down and then off and only take it if I need it. I don't like being out of control.

Back in my younger days of partying other pills or combinations would have similar effects.

The things in my life that have made me feel more of an individual are pursuing my own interests, using my name outside with friends, letting people know that it's Sunny who hates ice cream and Marigold who will eat it up despite the fact that I just told you I hate it. It's accepting that you live in a very crowded house but still have the right to pursue your own dreams and fulfull your own life's purpose.

Sunny

Post edited by: Sundrop, at: 03/07/2011 05:54 AM

For me it was not rapid cycling, but it did freak out everyone. I was sent into hiding most of the time while we were on those meds. I know what ones were given and as soon as the effects started coming, I was sent away so as to not have to deal with them. I do however remember baracading my sister and cousin in a public restroom one evening and refusing to let them out until they told me what was going on and who was behind it. All that was going on was a severe thunderstorm that was causing the lights to flicker and we were stuck out in it all. I still have some writings that I did during that time and it is no where near coherent. I stopped one med because I was eatring supper in a dining hall and saw the bricks on the walls. I thought to myself that they would make rather interesting leggo patterns and then they started turning into leggo designs. I became psychotic on them.

with some other psychoactive meds, I would just have weird reactions. THey tried giving me lithium at one point and the more they gave me the less that showed up in my system. MAny caused me to sleep excessively and I swear that I was doing things. Hubby will recall that all I did was sleep, but I distinctly remember working 16 hours a day, being up with the children all day, cooking, cleaning and such. No one else remembers me doing all that. All they remember is me sleeping all the time.

As to purposely seperating yourselves, I have never heard of any method to do so either. I agree with Sunny, just acknowledge your uniquenesses, presue your interests and make it known that they are specific to you.

Brenda

Yes I was on a combination of pills, some antipsychotics, some mood stabilizers, some other stuff and I was a zombie half of the time and a raving maniac the other half. I have a list of pills I will never take again. They would switch the combo. of drugs and then a new set of symptoms would appear, either the switching or even once a new alter showed up to deal with the whole mess. She was not affected by them and threw them out and quit therapy. She didn't leave until it was all out of our system. I also have one alter who always feels like she felt on those meds, it's permanant now and I don't know why exactly, except it must have been the worst for her.

Sunny

It is also possible that it triggered something in her that she was not ready to deal with and is stuck at that point til she can deal with it.

Brenda

I am on and have been on antiphsycotics since I was 18 and I don't rapid cycle through alters. However, my medicine has to be altered constantly because my meds do not work the same on each alter. It makes some sleepy, some really manic, some are not Bipolar at all, some it's much more severe than others. So they all just react to the medicine differently.

Hugs

Amanda