Miscarriage Support Group

I probably made the biggest mistake at this point. I decided to try to act like nothing ever happened. Like I had never been pregnant, like I wasn't carrying a dead baby around in my body. I immediately spent the weekend at my comfort zone; the beach. I came back thinking that I was fine, and called my doctor to schedule the D&C. Then reality kicked in.

I had told my boss what happened and needed a few days off. I think a little part of me hoped she would tell everyone at work so I wouldn't have to deal with it; that was far from the truth. When I return to work, people started with the normal pregnant questions and I realized that I was not ok with this; I couldn't tell people i wasn't having a baby anymore.

Today was the first day that I realized that I couldn't avoid the emotions and I couldn't do this by myself. I tried to talk to my boyfriend, but he could only offer so much support; he had no idead what I was feeling.

Now the site of babies are getting to me, the baby commercials, the dreams that I have at night about babies. I cry all the time now. What do I do now to stop crying?

I can't even begin to describe the greif that I am feeling. I was lucky in that my boss told my coworkers for me, but I have had to retell the story a hundred times to family and friends. Since I was 14 weeks we had already let everyone know. I am also having a rough time adjusting to the thought that I am not pregnant anymore. There is not going to be a baby in November.

Even though I am going through the same thing that you are, I still don't know what to say to make you feel better. The only thing I know to say is that I am truly sorry for your loss and I feel your pain. I think that's what I want people to do is to acknowledge my loss and the pain that I am feeling. I am also really looking for someone to talk to that understands what I am going through. I have no one close to me that has suffered a miscarriage and people who haven't experienced it can never fully comprehend it. I know I didn't before. I don't know how I know it, but somehow I know that it will get easier. Someday I will be able to talk about my baby without crying. I don't know when this day will come for me, or for you, but I know that eventually it will come. In the mean time I take comfort in knowing that there are other people that understand my pain and loss, and I hope you can take comfort in that as well. Again, I am so sorry for your loss.