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Okay, here's the deal.

I need some advice.

I have a few separate problems that happen to coencide with eachother.

Problem one: Lying.

-I have an addiction to lying that's so bad that I lie to myself for months in advance and make sure I believe it before I say a single word to anyone else, and normally these lies are so well premeditated that nobody figures it out until I tell them. I always tell people that I lied about a year or so after the initial lie has been told, and during that whole time my life revolves around making that lie seem real to people.

- How do I fix this?

Problem two: Obsession with a double life.

- My lying often comes up with my obsession to live a double life. I crave desperately to be Schizophrenic (No idea why), and try my hardest to make it seem like I'm hiding an extreme mental disorder, which I'm not. I've even gone to such extremes as to have supposed "hallucinations" near my friends so that they freak out and ask me questions, and then I try to cover it up by telling them nothing is wrong and that I'm perfectly fine. Which is the honest truth. I am fine.

- Why do I want to be crazy?

Problem three: Addiction to hospitals.

- I will do basically anything to get myself into a hospital, especially for getting blood drawn or IV fluids. They bring me utter joy.

- What the fuck is wrong in my head to make me think this way?

Does anyone have any advice for me? I need all the advice I can possibly get.

i think you should print this out and give it to your mom. just tell her you have a problem, you don't know what it is, and you need to get help.

I guess I could try that. I don't know what she'll do... hopefully she doesn't just tell me I'm stupid. Thanks for your advice.

i hope she doesn't tell you that you are stupid. if she does is there a teacher or guidance counselor you can talk to at your school? or another family member.

Well, there's a social worker at our school. I tried talking to her once before, and she said she couldn't help me.

well, that is not very promising now is it/

No. Not at all. The only other person I might be able to go to is my dad, and he's a marijuana addicted tattoo artist living halfway across the country who wouldn't know what to say to me, let alone what to do. So here's hoping that my mom understands and does something about it.

I seriously doubt that a Social worker would tell you that he/she could not help you. It sounds to me that you are in desperate need of attention and are seeking it in any way you can get it, mainly in the wrong ways. Talk to your mother as quickly and as honestly as possible so that she can get you into therapy, please.

She did admit to compulsive lying... i would assume it applies to her posts here, as well.

That it does. I did talk to the social worker, she didn't tell me she couldn't help me, she told me she couldn't help me until I really wanted to help myself and gave her permission to talk to my mom.