This yet another family medical things my Mom hasn't discussed with me. Once I started suspecting it, I mentioned it to her, then she decides to tell me we go early; her and her sister were fully in the swing of it by 40, and my Mom's last period was at 44. I was going to get essure, but once I suspected the problem, I postponed it. It was within days of my having a bipolar episode, and I saw my psychiatrist first. I had to get stable before dealing with the physical. I already have a slew of mental health problems (also runs in the family), and this is physically and mentally beating me down. I saw my gynecoligist today, and he really wouldn't talk about it. I'm on the pill, so my hormones can't be tested. I'm scared to go off it altogether, even though it could help with hormone testing. I'm afraid of how much worse it could get if I didn't have the hormones. My psychiatrist is absolutely certain; she actually chuckled at me when I asked if it really couldn't be something else, she said there's no doubt. Someone, please tell me I'm not crazy. Yes, I have a whole lot of problems, but I can't ignore what my body has been screaming at me for 2 years. I'm in such a low place right now. I keep thinking, how much more of it I can take. I'm so overwhelmed by it all, and I'm entirely too young for this. Is anyone else in an even remotely similar situation? Or suggestions on what I should do next? I'm in way over my head. Whew, I feel better just saying it.  C |
