Hi, It sounds as if ou really need to deal with your feelings about all of this. You are not a bad person for smoking pot or hiding it from your wife. Those are just poor decisions you made. Shame is about who ou are. Guilt is about things youve done. You did some inappropriate things, and because you care, you feel guilty about them. I hope that you can work through those feelings. It will keep you down in the painful depths of addiction. I have been addicted to almost everything.....alcohol, gambling, food, and drugs. You name it, I'll find away to become addicted to it. I know that dealing with the feelings of guilt and shame were the most difficult. I didn't have troubles forgiving most everyone else....except myself. I have been in recovery for 10 years now. It saved my life. Have you ever thought of going into treatment or counseling? I have been told there are Marijuana anonymous meetings. You may want to try one. I hope that you are having a good night.  I am not a doctor so everything I say is from my experience, my opinion, or advice from research I've done. You should always consult with your health care professional.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
Yesterday is history...tomorrow is a mystery....today is a gift.... that's why it is called the present.
Your friend, Chris |
