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Hi Kiera, welcome! I have been through the addiction cycles since I was very young. I was 4 or 5 when I had my first drink. No I didn't drink heavily then, it just planted the seed of alcoholism in me. I was abused as a child, sexually, and every other way possible. I really started drinking when I was 9....I also started using pot. Didn't care for it much because I always became sick ( ) and it interferred with my drinking! I didn't like throwing up! (not to many people do) LOL. I'm in recovery now. Have been for 10 years. I went through treatment a few times before I decided to get serious about my life. I know that you have been through alot. I know it isn't easy to deal with the pain of abuse. It is alot easier...or so it seems at the time.....to drown the feelings with alcohol or drugs. I did for many years. Then out of the blue, the memories and flashbacks of the abuse came pouring out in many different ways. I thought I was going crazy. It was time to deal with it all. I went to treatment and counseling. It helped me get my back my life. I hope that you are able to get help with the abuse issues. I do understand how emotional it can be. I just know from my experience that it doesn't go away....it hides for awhile, until it wants to come back out....whether you are ready for it or not. I don't know all you have been through but I've had some similar experiences. I'm here if you ever need a friend or to talk. Take care and keep in touch. Your Friend, Chris |
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