NATIONAL SUICIDE HOTLINE PREVENTION #

1-800-784-2433

Please, please , please, call if you feel so bad you are desperate to end it. I thought this ought to be posted and stickied here.

My dad put a gun in his mouth and pulled the trigger when I was 9. It didn't kill him. In fact, we could have had 24 hour nursing, and he could have been a vegetable, that still could feel pain! That's what broke my heart, he could still feel pain! But, we pulled the plug.

I understand his desperation, I've been there and tried it a couple of times. I know have 2 young ones, very young. I could never imagine putting them thru what I lived thru. He wasn't at my graduation, not at my wedding, my bulletin read "In loving memory of Marty" , he wasn't there when I got really sick with this disease, to hold me up, he wasn't there to see either of his grandchildren be born. Yes, there is a lot of hell we live thru, but think of all the good we have too. I know, let me repeat that, I KNOW how aweful this is. I know how hard it is to find an ounce of hope in the darkness, I"m living this with all of you. BUT the leading cause of death from LD is suicide. PEOPLE DO GET WELL ALL THE TIME. You must have faith that you will, you must know wihtout a doubt that you will. And you must remember that we are all here together. This is an amazing group of people, I know if one person reached out with a "help me now" message, we would jump on that post as fast as we could. So please, make the post, make the call, don't end it.

Warmest regards,

jaime

I was researching Lyme in the first few days of being diagnosed - I remember coming across a blog that was all obituaries for Lymies. I was shocked at how many committed suicide.

Sooo sad.

Yes, it was increadibly hard loosing my dad, and especially in this way. Anyone who has known me, knows I didn't handle it so well, 20 years later and I'm still affected by it. I understand that we aren't ourselves when we are thinking thoughts like that, I have been there several times. But it doesn't make it any easier to accept when you're looking at a closed casket. I know we're one of the smaller forums, and I would hate for a post for help to go unanswered any longer than 10 minutes, so at least this gives everyone another option.