~~~Hello NJDC,
~~~PLease forgive me this anecdote, as I know of no antidote, for this dopey pain in the derriere, slippery slope.
~~~So, meanwhile, until this gorilla on your back goes back to where it belongs, please consider the following ...
``````` The Tea Kettle ```````
``` by Mitchell ```
`` inspired by "bean" ``
~~~A post from "bean"...
~~~coffeebean27 05/03/2010 12:42 PM
~~~"I just need some hugs or something. Constant tinnitus for months and months has left me pretty depressed. It's just so hard to function with this "tea kettle" whistle in my head. Not to mention the rest of the lyme symptoms.
Day 33 of doxy and Ceftin and no relief."
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05/05/2010 06:17 PM
waxby
~~~Hey bean.
~~~Here's some hugs but you have to lift my arms cause I'm too weak to lift'em and still a little sore from the surgery. Wanna trade?
~~~I had ringing long ago but now it just sounds like a forrestful of crickets.
~~~I think it may have been Michael J Fox who told the story of a circle of people with all sorts of problems and every one wrote theirs on a piece of paper and threw it in the middle and all was to pick a problem from the pile. Everyone picked back their own problem.
~~~Life sure is funny init?
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05/08/2010 09:58 AM
coffeebean27
"P.S. Mitchell, that really is a crazy Micheal J Fox story. How true though, we always seem to hang onto our own problems...whether we intend to or not!!"
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05/08/2010 05:51 PM
waxby
~~~Yes bean.
~~~It is not that we want a problem, necessarily, it is just that when we have one we get relatively used to it and the thought of losing one to another is overwhelming and keeping the one we are used to seems better than learning a new one all over again."
~~~Of course this is what is so devastating with Lyme. You get rid of one set of symptoms and gain a new set. Very frustrating and extremely challenging. It is like gaining a whole new disease over and over again. Groundhog Day?
~~~Now to the ringing in your ears, your "whistling tea kettle," or whatever the gorilla on your back may be.
~~~Let us lighten the load a bit and call this gorilla the Bless-ed Curse, as I have spoken about, or even lighter still to The Master/Very Wise Teacher.
~~~What does this mean? Think of your prominent problem as your Master or very wise teacher. You may call this your Spirit Guide, Guardian Angel, Higher Power, or your own Higher Self teaching you something. Call it as you will. Really, ultimately, perhaps, you are your own Master. You are your own true self.
~~~I love reading and following the Buddhist Masters and the Masters Jesus, The Buddha, Mahatma Gandhi, Martin Luther King, Mother Nature-God's Wife (this I thought when I was a little boy) etc.
~~~Who are your wise teachers?
~~~There are stories of the Masters/Teachers, for example, teaching meditation and tapping or whacking the student on the shoulder or head or even throwing them out a second story window and then jumping onto them and yelling "get it?" to keep them focused or to awaken them to a higher or deeper realm/reality or a more focused or deeper meditation or prayer.
~~~I have called this Lyme Thing my Master (and other colorful names). It keeps me focused, persistently "tapping me on the shoulder". It will not let me forget my focus, my prayer, my deepest desire, my spirit, the most important ideals, morals, ethics, values, codes, in this life and the next, if there is one, for barely a moment.
~~~You know when you are trying to achieve something like a degree, quitting smoking, changing diet habits, or reaching for the stars or wanting to meditate more or pray more etc and you lose focus when you blink, and poof you are side tracked?
~~~Enter the Master. Whack! Stay focused! Your Master is the "whistling tea kettle" in your ears.
~~~Mine, at this stage of the game, is extreme, debilitating, profound weakness. Whenever you are aware of this "whistling tea kettle", which may be always, this is your master reminding you to stay alert and awake.
~~~Pray, meditate, ponder the universe, God?, no God?, Life after death? Not? If there is, how do I contribute/invest to that? Etc, etc, ad infinitum.
~~~What are your prayers, ponderings, meditations?
~~~Everyone has their own "whistling tea kettle." When it whistles stay on task. Ever vigilant. Always awake. Always aware.
~~~Another story. One has heard of this great Master. He travelled great distances and gave up great fortune to find this great Master. And when he found him the master agreed to teach him.
~~~"With these boulders, rocks, and stones build me a house." The student eager to learn and to please his new Master, built him a beautiful house.
~~~"Master I am finished!"
~~~"Hmmm, no this won't do. Tear it down and build me another!"
~~~His student eager to learn and to please built him another more grand and more beautiful.
~~~"Master, master, come and see. I have built you a better house!"
~~~"Hmmm. Very nice. But this will not do. Tear it down and do it again."
~~~Over and over and over again, so devoted to his master, he tore down and built one more beautiful than the last.
~~~I feel like that devoted student and Lyme is that master. "Whack!" ... "Tear it down and build another! … Whistle! … Tear it down and build another!"
```````~~~In my straight jacket~~~out on a limb~~lookin like a cocoon~~~hangin by a thread~~~waitin for a butterfly~~~under the moon~~~laughin at life~~~lovin you all, Mitchell~~~
