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Casey... It does suck and it is not fair. I have been battling this friggen disease for nearly 30 years, and I am not one of the lucky ones to find remission. Some good months here and there...but no remission. I have had chronic pain since about 16 - and the nerve pain was not far behind it. Lyrica has been the absolute best for me pain wise...YEA it helped me pack on a few extra pounds - BUT without it I would truly be suffering constantly. It lessens my pains to a place where I can ignore them...if I were to take a few minutes to "tune" into my body...the pain is at about a constant 4 right now - with tons of shocks and stabbing jolts...but I can ignore for the most part upto level 4 pain...and the Lyrica enables me to do that. And I also take Lortab 2x's a day. This is coming from someone who used to take 900-1200 mgs of Neurontin, 120-150 mgs of Morphine, Skalexin, Soma, Naproxeen...I used to have a HUGE pain med regimin...The Lyrica was a god send... What are you doing for the depression? Are you on an RX's for that? Lexapro had worked the best for both my depression and severe anxiety for me...and I only had to be on it for about 9 months - then I was able to function on my own...BUT it wasnt just the Lexapro... When I was on Lexapro, i also did about 3 months of Rifampin - which is a strong abx...And then I took me time. My hubby was working away from home, so I had lots of time to deal with my disease and myself. When I came to terms with ME - everything about me...and what I needed to change about me to get better - in every aspect, it became easier. This disease, and the people in my life, and how I handled it ALL - made for a bit of a mess. Let yourself get angry...feel what you feel. Let it come and then you HAVE to let it go. There are just somethings that you cant change. And there are things that you can change... The worst thing that you can do is let the upset, anger, frustration, etc...consume you. Depression can be your WORST enemy - and it will turn you against yourself. I have been through many levels of depression - and there are places that I refuse to go again...You are becoming a warrior here. Allow yourself a set amt of time to feel your worst emotionally. Then when that time is up...make yourself move on. For some people, when we learn to accept our feelings and pains, and stop fighting it, the pain lessens. Believe me, this is all easier said then done. I have begged for death because the pain is so bad. I have resolved myself to being ok with death, if it eases my pain, and stops my family from watching me suffer. And obviously, I didnt get death, but the pain did lessen - because I stopped fighting against it. Rather let it run its course... OK - been rambling A LOT here...Hang in there. You will get through it...and when you do, you will find that you have become a better and stronger person. There is so much that we learn from this...I think I have learned so much about being compassionate...but I will leave those stories for another thread... Please, feel free to PM me any time - if you need to vent, I will always listen - and I dont take things personally - unless you want me to   ... 
Christine I know what I am and I know what I am not
Never put it past this disease to be the culprit - but we also cant brainwash ourselves into believing that it is the only thing |
"MDJunction to me has been the helping friends of understanding that I have needed. I feel now as if someone else it the world understands the things that I am going through. I feel less alone and happier. Here I can let out all my emotions and get support from many people who have been in similar situations. It really has been a life saver for me!" (Amanda78)
I know it is a stupid BS cliche but we really have to try not to get so caught up in all the negative thoughts because it is all too easy to get stuck there. That said...we ALL have our moments and a good cry can also be just the purge you need.
