OK...so here it goes. Does anyone else get into a state of high aggitation? Like the littlest things can set me off and I am a raging lunatic. I appear calm and what-not, but call my name and I am instantly boiling...forget angry...my mind is in the red zone.

Last month the park mngr here came to tell me that someone complained about our wood not getting split. I verbally tore his head off. The poor guy ran from me in fear... The last 2 days, man if I explain something and the other party doesnt get it, I get really nasty...thank god I am not face to face the with the majority of the people I talk to. And my Kids - they are walking on eggshells around me. They are learning tho...mom aggitated = nasty mom.

I have noticed that when I get like this for a few days, I then have those damn episodes of shocks and jolts in my spine - oh and cant forget nerves that mess up my stomach and entire digestive system.

Geez IDK if I am asking a question or just plain old venting. I just know that if I had someone or something to punch I would probably do so until my knuckles bled. Ha or until my body cramped up and gave out...whichever came first.

Anyone else get like this????

Christine

Post edited by: cmany, at: 11/22/2008 15:09

There are periods that is waxes and wanes.Sometimes Im almost afraid of my responses and how agitated I become.My fiance who has dealt with me (I dont know how)even says sometimes he feels like hes walking on eggshells.

I used to be a calm person,but sometimes just the smallest thing will set me off.I also agree with Ron,who wouldnt get the way we do with the type or lack of sleep.

I know for sure for me its the lyme.

I also get the jolts in the spine, my head jerked right off the pillow the other night as if parkinsons like jerk.

I think that even subconsciously we are exhausted of this.

I know that this insomnia certainly doesnt help to me nice and sweet that is for sure.

I am sending u hug

Kitty

(((BIG HUGS)))

Post edited by: beauty4ashes, at: 11/22/2008 21:53

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Ya know, now that you mention this, I can see that this is a cycle you've done since I've known you, tho I never would have recognized it as a cycle. I'm glad you actually recognized it as such. I always just sorta put it up to you being moody and not being lyme-related. But now that I look back on it, it's always come in a cycle, and it's always followed by a period of you feeling like total and utter crap. And I can remember each and every one of these cycles. You haven't had a lot of them, but they've been intense, haven't they?

I really don't suffer from this in particular, as a cycle, or as a situation like what you describe. BUT, that said, I can say that I have a lot less patience now than I used to. I still have a lot of patience, but I have far less than I did before I had LD. It's hard to remember 14 years back...but I can! LOL...I know that things that wouldn't normally bother me, like back then, DO seriously get at me now. And when I'm in more pain, look out, cuz you piss me off, and you will seriously get an earful or more!! When I've reached my threshold for stupidity and whatever else I'm having to deal with with other people (drivers--oh, I seriously get road rage!, people being rude, or whatever else), they really better watch out for me, cuz I get on a rampage. And I think you guys know by now that I pretty much call it like it is anyway. So, when I'm pissed, oh, buddy!!!

But it doesn't seem to cycle like yours does... And I'm sorry. But, at the same time, I think in a way it may be good, because now you can recognize this and know that you have a bit of a warning that something is coming. And you can take some action ahead of time. Take pain meds, STOP and slow down...that sort of thing. Maybe it's a blessing in disguise in a way?

*hugs* luvume, hun!

J

There's a well-known state called "lyme rage." It happens to many people as lyme is a neuro disease.

Most people who are having an episode often sort of withdraw (not really an option for you, I know) or vent or find ways to get some of it out.

I hope it doesn't last too long.

Try to take care of yourself right now and don't stew over the ranger. Just apologize later!

(((BIG HUGS))) Christine,.... Hang in there!!! And keep talking to us about these things so we can support you better & better, okay? I'm really glad you shared this with us.

I'm F.I.N.E.
Frustrated, Irritated, Nonfunctional & Everything hurts!!

Sarcasm: Embrace it!
______________________

"Always hold your head up, but be careful to keep your nose at a friendly level" - Max L. Foreman
______________________

I know God will not give me anything I can't handle.
I just wish he didn't trust me so much.
- Mother Teresa
______________________

"There's always light at the end of every tunnel, just pray it's not a train! "
______________________

Faith makes things possible, not easy!

I don't know if it's Lyme rage, built-up, pent-up stress, drug side effects, frustration and fear, lack of sleep...or a combination of all the above. But man, when it hits, I cannot seem to rein it in. I feel as though I could tear wallpaper off the walls with my fingernails only.

Today was just awful. I got so angry and frustrated I just yelled at dh (cuz the computer printer wasn't working), then could NOT stop crying--it was absolutely overwhelming. Told dh to just "go out," cuz I am not to be soothed and I fear alienating him...

Not gonna lie, I took an extra painkiller (probably not a good idea), went back to bed, called a friend and cried, vented and eventually just wore myself out.

Don't know the how and why of this but fortunately it doesn't usually last (well, the intensity anyway) that long. But I hate the feeling of losing (even more) control. Days like today I feel like Lyme is beating the c**p out of me.

You are not alone. It would surprise me if most of us don't feel this at least some of the time. One more Lyme issue to cope with.

It does seem to have something to do with my period also. I used to get really bad cramps and all that when I was a teen. Since the worst of it was cramps...I was put on the pill and all was ok. Then I got Lyme and now I am a raging lunatic for a few days before my period and the first few days I have it...I feel bad for people around me when this also coincides with lunar cycles.

This past Friday I was a ticking time bomb and sure enough, the fiance and I had a blow out Saturday. (Note: he is also trying to quit smoking again because apparently he picked it up again at work and decided to wake me out of a dead sleep Tuesday night to confess that he's a full on smoker again during the day, buying packs and everything. "Pissed" just doesn't quite describe what I was feeling. His quiting the first time was almost more than I could bear. We both quit when I found out I was pregnant for our daughter's sake aswell as our own.)

Another thing I wanted to ask...

I had an MRI done last Thursday and as soon as they turned the machine on, I started to get twitches and spasms, etc. all over and more noticably than ususal. Has anyone else made this observation?