I of course have my good days, but lately they have been less than ideal. It has gotten me significantly "bummed", and I am so not a "bummed out" person. I am not so sure that it is me, more so than it is the Lyme/Bartonella. If I had to take a wild guess, I would have to say that it is definitely the latter.

Anyway, I recently started a new protocol and I believe that I am having one heck of a die off, but I feel so horrible. How does one try to have a semi normal life?! I try to always keep positive. I recently started back to a part time job, mainly to get me out of the house, to keep in touch with the real world, and simply because I had no other choice. I just find it hard to concentrate, which is really disturbing to me.

My Lyme is more neuro and I am having a very hard time dealing with the fact that I can't keep up, or at least that is how I am currently feeling. I am not so sure that I should be working. I am struggling to get well at the moment...I am just confused and extremely downhearted, along with herxing- what a combination?!

I think I just need to share. My family and friends have no idea what this is like. I don't even know what this is like. I also feel like I am in one heck of a nightmare, and I am praying, pleading and begging to be released. Sorry for the downhill day. Like I said, I just needed to share. Thank you for being there, and I do wish everyone out there a very Merry Christmas and a wonderful New Year...God knows we need it!!!

Susan

Susan

When I'm feeling down and out like today, I try and look at the good things I do have (yes that can be hard) but I try. I read, a lot to keep my mind working right...lol

This will get better, it just takes a lot of time..

Happy Holidays

julie