I too experience severe panic attacks. I have had them in the past before Lyme ruiened my life,but they weren't as often as now.
I sometimes lie in bed at night and think i am going to have a heart attack. I say to myself "you are going to die tonight". I know this may sound dramatic but it is how i feel at the time. It is really scary i agree.
I've wondered if it is due to the meds.or a symptom of the Lyme itself,or perhaps both?
So thank you for asking this question because i now know that i am not alone and it is probably due to this horrible disease for one reason or another.
Is there anything that you have found to help you get through them? I just lay there and try to talk myself out of it.
Mine too seem to cycle for several hours. Then they will go away. But while going through, i feel as if it will last forever.
Maybe during pms hormones are causing it to be worse.Anyway, you are not alone with this feeling. It is truely awful.
~~~I have not experienced panic attacks but have experienced tachycardia(rapid heart rate),air hunger,etc, and a hundred other symptoms including feeling as though I might die many times,and also asking God to take my life,many years ago,which SHe didn't,obviously,except how do you know I am really here,hmmmmm? Instead,SHe left me here for you! I am greatful for this! SHe is a genius!
~~~Here are some thoughts for you to ponder...
````````````Getting better Before Getting Better````````````
~~~First,let me say I know this is a controversial subject.Some will agree and some will not.Some will not even come to this site in fear or "knowledge" that simply coming here is giving permission to allow this disease to inhabit them.
~~~Making willful choices is our willful choice.Free will.Some would even argue this.Do we really have free will and is it always useful or correct or even really possible?
~~~I "choose" to look at it from only my point of view.I can't know yours.
~~~Perhaps a free will is not all it is cracked up to be.I mean how do we know that our free choices are the best choices just because they are free and ours to make and "I" made them? And who am I? The final authority?
~~~How do we know that by choosing to turn our back on something may be turning our back on a good thing?
~~~I understand that as humans we would like our lives to be pain free.Free from difficulty.Free from suffering.Happy and full of joy.Is this a dream or a reality? Is this even possible? Just what is the recipe?
Just wanted to send you a quick message to say thank you for keeping an eye on me and helping me to snap out of it. I'm still feeling like crap, and I'm still worried as all hell, but I'm back to being determined to get better, rather than wanting to give up.
I'm in a lot of pain this week. Still getting the sharp pains in my chest, but it's not as bad as yesterday, and I just don't want to go to the ER and have them stress me out more and tell me nothing I don't already know. So, unless I get worse, I'm just going to stick it out and see what happens. I figure if it's getting better, it's getting better, right?
I sincerely appreciate your presence here. It means a lot to me to have the support and just to know someone else understands what I'm going through.
How are YOU doing these days?
~~~Thank you Dancingwinde,
~~~I know how badly you want to get better.Me too.And I know how important it is to be positive so please don't take what I am about to say as a negative but rather a different look at reality to perhaps help you cope better.
~~~I have been dealing with this(Lyme) for eleven years now.My latest experiments are with MMS,for nine months now,and in alternating days,frequencies,amounts,and combinations,teasel,samento,venus fly trap,banderol,smilax,japanese knotweed/resveratrol,andrographis,olive leaf extract,grapefruit seed extract,bromelain,systemic enzymes,oral EDTA,nattokinase, vits,mins,supps,baking soda,and of course as always a superior diet and proper rest.And "thinking." and "not thinking." And for several months now 100mg a day or every 2nd,3rd,or 4th day of minocycline.
~~~My excercise consists of getting out of bed and going up and down the steps and with extreme difficulty.And when I am very fortunate I make it into my business several times a month.I can't shop,do chores,laundry,change my bed,or take showers.Luckily I can feed myself but with difficulty.My daughter washed my hair and a friend washed my hair and cut it.
~~~I tell you these things not to elicit sympathy but to express the reality of my situation.In reality I am tickled to do even the little things I can manage.
~~~I am happy not to be completely paralyzed.That is the bright side to my situation.Of course if I were completely paralyzed,as I experienced recently with my appendicitis and apendectomy,and several months ago when I rolled out of bed and onto the floor and paralyzed,peed myself,I would have to find the bright side there.As the Monty Python song goes "always look at the bright side of life,"(whistle it).
~~~So here goes.When you experience a moment when you think you have made a turn around towards healing,only get cautiously optimistic or cautiously excited.With this disease there are many calms before a storm.In the calm we allow ourselves to think "finally a turnaround" only to be dissapointed by the next storm.Perhaps one day there will be "the" turnaround.
~~~There are many who will view this as negative thinking.My response to them is "try this." They have not been faced with a "negative" chronic persistent reality that will not go away with "proper" thinking and therefore think they have a "proper" hold on reality.I wonder.I do not know.I only know MY situation.
~~~However,my position is that I am learning priceless lessons about life,in my present reality,with this dis-ease,that otherwise I may not have.This is a gift to me.A very difficult gift.I except.
~~~Now,you may not remain with this "challenge" as long as some.I hope this will be true.And you may be dealing with this for a very long time.Only time will tell.
~~~In the meantime I feel it is of vital importance to learn whatever lessons that this challenge will provide.To see this "dis-ease" as a positive.But you must be willing to "see" through this deep fog. To get better before getting better.
~~~Acceptance is one valuable lesson.Acceptance of things we cannot change.But out of this acceptance there are lilies that will bloom from this fertile poo.Jewels.This is the positive side of this "dark" reality.The "gift" of dis-ease.This Bless-ed Curse.The gift of suffering.Simply open your "third eye" and "see."
~~~So those who only see the "negative" in my predicament fail to see my new "Jewels." The "blessing" in this "curse." I wonder who is the negative thinker? No judgement here.I do not know.I only know of my personal experience.I have grown,evolved,expanded,contracted,gained some wisdom.I am greatful.Here I have found some joy in this "pit of despair"
~~~So as your "Tea Kettle" (your challenge) whistles for you,don't get discouraged,get to work.Expand,contract,evolve,grow your lilies out of this swamp.This very difficult, golden swamp.
~~~Perhaps this is what is meant by,some have said,"You are perfect as you are,life is perfect as it is,and you could use a little improvement."
```````~~~From my straight jacket~~~out on a limb~~~lookin like a cocoon~~~hangin by a golden thread~~~waitin for a butterfly~~~under the moon~~~laughin at life from this "pit of despair" ~~~Lovey-Dovey,Mitchell~~~
welcome check out the link on ANXIETY that is found in LYME TREATMENTS. if it is NOT a sticky that is visible as you look from the top down, go to CMANY's post where she combined around 30 of my posts together in 1 link.
they are clearly marked as ANXIETY; studies/articles.
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keep in mind that anxiety and psychological symptoms are hallmark symptoms of bartonella one of the coinfections..my daughter had lyme,bart,and babs..i saw the anxiety up close and she suffered greatly..read up about bartonella and see if you have the other symptoms...hang in there..you will get better..keep the faith
11/04/2010 03:15 PM
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It's interesting that some of you mentioned that your anxiety is primarily at night- that is pretty much the only time I experience the panic attacks (with one or two exceptions). Hmmmm.. I wonder if that is common with panic attacks in general or more of a Lyme/co-infection thing....
11/04/2010 04:38 PM
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What can i say? You are truely AMAZING!! I wish i could put words together like that. You are here to keep all of our spirits HIGH. I know that you are helping me with your amazing wisdom,and courage. Bless your beautiful heart my friend Rosemarie
Post edited by: somuchpain, at: 11/04/2010 04:39 PM
11/04/2010 10:00 PM
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There really is something connected to the nighttime with this ( Bartonella? ) anxiety. I don't understand it either. I just know that for me it is like looking through a window into some other reality, and one that I would rather not know about.
I reported this on another post, that early on, my nighttimes became so dreadful I actually looked into finding an exorcist to help me. LOL! What I eventually ended up with, was a Greek Orthodox priest who came to my house in his full robes, and walked around loudly chanting stuff and waving incense for a good half hour or so.
Truth is, it actually seemed to so something! The (hallucinations) I was having alongside the anxiety greatly decreased. So go figure, because I had thought that a little tick was the only one to blame for the whole nightmare. And I still do tend to think this when the night anxiety attacks come.
So I haven't had a hallucination for a long time ( which seem very real to me, and like they occur outside my body. )
I would like to know how many Lyme sufferers have had this kind of thing.
I hope you don't experience hallucinations with your anxiety, they are awful! But I have to tell you, if you do, don't isolate yourself like I used to.
You will need to keep in touch with those of us who have had this. It can really play havoc with the brain!
God bless you!
Post edited by: Bettyg, at: 11/05/2010 01:17 AM
11/05/2010 02:59 PM
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Wow VicMac- so sorry to hear about how severe your anxiety was (i.e. the hallucinations). Glad to hear that isn't something you experience any more, no matter how it was that you got it to go away! Luckily I do not have hallucinations, and I hope that it stays that way. Panic attacks are scary enough on their own!!
As for the night time/anxiety connection, it is quite bizarre. Any other lymies out there that have panic attacks primarily at night? Or does anyone know if panic attacks generally just occur more (for every one) at night?
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