````````````Hope```````````````````from Mitchell```````
~~~Hello Hope,
~~~I awoke at 3 am and the first thing on my mind after the constant reminder realization and reality of my chronic persistent Lyme Dis-ease runaway locomotive impending as yet temporary paralysis' was you.
I'm feeling a little anxious and somewhat guilty about my offered musings to you and the forum.
I even went back and changed the wording on one of my replies to you about "in each breath out- death and each breath in-life, a new birth and isn't that exciting."
And I thought some people must think I am a lunatic.
I even went back and changed the wording to each breath out- goodbye, each breath in- birth so as not to use the word death as this might seem scary, depressing, and even offensive to some.
I understand this as this is much how I first reacted when the masters told me of this thing death.
~~~I am very concerned about you and want so much to be helpful and hand you the key to "success."
Here Hope, is the answer, the pill, for your outcry
"I'm scared, what's happening to me, do I have Lyme or don't I? I'm getting worse."
And I don't have "the" answer, for you.
Nor do I have "the" answer for any of the forum's confused,sick and desperate members.
~~~Everyone comes on forum looking for help, and real, tangible answers to their helpless situations.
And everyone comes back with their "tangible" answers, ideas of what to do to help them based on what they know has helped them. And that is a good thing.
But I know of the other reality of this dis-ease and it's chronic, persistent side from my personal and others' experience.
So I try to offer a different perspective. The "spiritual" side of things.
~~~I know how this might sound to many.
I'm sure there are those out there who think many things about this including "shut the EF up with your spiritual nonesense. I want real, practical, tangible answers.
I want to get healthy again and live a normal life. I want my life back!
Take your silly bullshit spirit crap and shove it up your ass! I want real answers.
Not this crap about the other side. This God damned spirit crap!"(this is French,right? Pardon my French?)
~~~And I understand this.I want to get healthy again and live a normal, productive life too.
But I am faced with a reality that will not let that happen. And I have read so many stories of the same.
Some of us just are not getting better yet. No one really wants to hear these stories. They want to hear success stories and they want their own.
~~~I have been reading "the masters" for many years. Hundreds of books. They have told me many things.
One thing so many have conveyed to me was the importance of "meditating" on death. Death?! How grim! Morbid! Depressing!
They told me how short this precious life is. Blink and it will be gone!
At first this was a scary proposition. I didn't want to think about death, I want to think about life!
~~~And still,I kept reading their books and "meditating" on their many teachings.
And the more I pondered/meditated/flip-doodled on the reality of death, and other teachings, the more I saw the value and meaning of life.
I have learned the value of facing the reality of death. It causes me to let go of materiality and find what is left.
What is it that is most important? This I call, "they" call, the spirit.
~~~I don't know what happens after life. I don't know if there is an afterlife. I don't know if there is a God.
I have spent many a dark nights of the soul pondering this. Crying out to the unknown.
Pondering, praying, meditating, or whatever you wish to call it. And pondering these unanswerable mysteries has lead me to at least one certainty, one conclusion.
Whatever "this" is I know one thing for sure. All that exists outside of absolute zero is a miracle.
We are a miracle. "This" all is impossible. Nothing should exist!
Some something always comes from something else. Something cannot come from nothing! Something else must come from something else.
And yet "it" is here. The universe is filled with impossibilities! Where did it come from? Nothing? "This" is impossible!
And yet the impossible has happened! We have happened!
In my limited mind I can only see this as positively miraculous! What else could this be but a miracle?
~~~So to the atheists and their disbelief in God, I can only say the existence of God is no more far fetched a concept as the belief that anything exists.
Nothing should exist and yet it does. Why NOT God?
Everything that exists is impossible and so are "we" and yet it and we are here! How much less could the possibility of God be?
~~~Not to mention atheism is as extreme and unprovable a concept as is God. So if the atheists think theism is impossible so must be atheism. So perhaps atheists do not exist?
If a tree falls and no one is there to see it, does the tree make a sound?
Was it Nietzsche who said God is dead and God's reply is Nietzsche is dead?! (google god is dead-wikipedia etc)
~~~I don't know Hope.
But I am left with my own answer, conclusion, through my own personal experience, what the masters have been touting forever.
LOVE is the key. LOVE is the answer. LOVE is the door.
Compassion. Grace.
Forgiveness.
Understandiing.
Tolerance.
Openmindedness.
The Virtues are the key to open the door.
~~~To come "out" with this on open forum and the world at large is risky business. I am bearing my soul here.
These are not stuff, things. These are intangible, untouchable, feelings. People want a pill. A quick fix. Me too!
~~~That's all for now Hope.
~~~I love you.
```````~~~from my straight jacket~~~out on a limb~~~lookin like a cocoon~~~hangin by a thread~~~waitin for a butterfly~~~under the moon~~~Lovey-Dovey,Mitchell~~~
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