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Hi Friends  My name is Lisa McLaughlin I am 41yrs old, I have one son 22yrs old, one granddaughter 3 months old, and I have been divorced for five years. I was married for 17yrs to a man that had his problems and could handle my illness so I had to move on. Sometimes life just doesn't work out the way we planned or hoped. I used to have a great job at Ford Motor Company, and enjoyed my job a great deal at least up until I could not do my job any longer, plus I was missing work so much because of my illness so I decided to except a buy out offer the beginning of 2007. Everything changed my life has spiraled I have went from a lively,full of energy, happy person to someone that pray she can get out of bed and make it to the kitchen or bathroom, my ability to do daily things are questionable everyday will I be able to cook, vaccuum, dust, walk to the mail box. These are simple thing to someone that does not deal with these illnesses and you will get questioned about your ability because you don't look sick. You will hear that so much that you get sick of it "You Don't Look Sick"? I stand 5'3" I weigh in at 170lbs, I don't look like I wieght that much but I do, it doesn't bother me though anymore. Hell I have bigger problems than that. The Buy Out I took was an educational one and now I cant go to school because I can't see to read my books, I can't use my hands to write, and I can't sit long enough in a chair so I had to drop out, so I will not get my money anymore, plus I will lose my insurance. I have not even a penny to my name, and I have filed for Disability but all of us know that they are slower than molassas, and will probably deny me several times before I get it. My boyfriend is about to kick me out and I just can't figure out what is worse my illness or my life. So that is a little about me, I started off with a sunshiny life and through the years it has deminished into a life of confusion and disapare. There are many times that I want to just end it all, and there are times when I want to just find a hole to hide in. Lisa |
"When I was diagnosed I was scared didn't know what to do or where to go..I started reserching bipolar and somehow ended up here at MD....Again scared but needing to know what was in store I asked a question..WOW the people who care..I know I would be lost now if I did not join..made many friends and they have helped me through thick and thin. and never judged...........XX Thank you MD and all.Love all of you.......Laurie Pachin" (puppylover)
