I really am trying to stop the Percocet. Today I went the entire day with just using Motrin. However, tonight I broke down and couldn't take the pain anymore. Night time is definitely the worst time of day. I was out with family and had a complete panic attack. Between the pain and visions of the car accident I have decided that I think I will see a therapist for a short time. I really do NOT like seeing them but I think I need help coping with the accident. Tonight was the worst it had been. I was not driving but as we were driving home tonight whenever we made a left turn I had to close my eyes and hold my breath. You can call me a wimp but I cannot get past this on my own. Does that make sense? I want to be able to drive again. I am a very careful driver. I don't want to feel like I am going to die every time I drive. I am cautious and I do drive well. I am afraid I will never be able to drive again. I am shaking so much. This is also messing up my sleep Tonight I start a new seizure medication. That has nothing to do with how I feel. Tomorrow at 1:30 I am going to see my Primary Doctor. Maybe my elbow is just strained from the accident. There is a bruise on that arm that is the length of the forearm. I need to get past the back/neck/head pain. The black spots did go away thank God. I was worried that they might be permanent. Thank you for caring enough to post. Redhairali I am SO sorry about that accident. It sounds scary. We did not spin. She pushed us right down the road (not sure how far and into a sign which is now knocked over of course) "If you could read my mind you would be in tears"
"Who cares when I cry"
"A smile just hides the tears we hold inside."
- Me (IDNK) |
