Lupus Support Group

I'm sitting here early in the morning, and watching Mollie sleep, and crying. This isn't the first time either. I love her so much that I often wind up in tears just watching her sleep. Understand, before Mollie came into my life, I had nothing, was nothing, and was so lonely for so long that I had reached the point of committing suicide. I was that lonely. I couldn't see how anyone could love me. Even God, it felt, didn't love me. Realize, lonliness is dangerous. It saps the soul, makes you feel less than nothing, not even worth wiping your feet on.

Mollie and I met online, and I fell in love instantly, as if I knew she was the one, my One. She has brought so much into my life, loved me so much when I felt unloved, unlovable. I thought I'd die without ever having experienced love in my life, and love was something I desperately needed, even more than life itself. Even through the rough times, I never stopped loving her. If anything, I loved her even more.

I'm so grateful to have her in my life, so lucky. She literally saved my life. She caught me at the right time, a time when ending it seemed like the only way out of my pain, my lonliness, and she loved me unconditionally. I will never leave her, never hurt her. She is my One. She fulfills so much that I needed in my life. I met her when I hurt so much. Lonliness can kill, in a most insideous fashion, and a most painful way. Lonliness sickens the soul, turns it on itself. Mollie has changed all of this for me, and in turn, I will do anything for her, anything.

She has become my world, my reason for existance, my reason to "Be". She improves me. She keeps me stable, and gives me a reason to go on, a reason, more than I've ever had to live. I couldn't imagine hurting her. I can't even contemplate ever leaving her. For those of you who understand the Lifestyle, Mollie is my One.

In bondage, I have found freedom.

In pain, I have found great pleasure.

In the darkness, I have seen the llight.

I have found my One.

I am now complete.

Cliff.

Good for you!!!!!!! I am so blessed when I read about someone finding a love to get them through the hard times and Lupus is a hard time. I have been byself for 15 years, but with God, my children and friends that have came into my life, these 15 years have been bearable. I have my days that I wish I had someone to enjoy sunsets with, or walks in the mountains, but it's all good. With God, I always have someone. Bless you and your wife and bless you to in your walk. Keep in touch.

Roxie

Always, Roxie. May you find what we have, and receive such blessings as we have!

Cliff and Mollie

Cliff & Mollie.....You two are truly blessed to have found each other...I have been married for 34 years this year but we have been together for 36 years....I actually met Fred when I was 15....his fiance introduced us....I had taken a girl I was babysitting to see Snow White at the movie theater and he was with his fiance....he still remembers meeting me...I had a red bandana in my hair, his fiance introdued us....he remembers that day to a tee....he said he couldn't get me out of his head....after I graduated when I came back from a trip to see my relatives back in Illinois with my family I heard he wanted to date me but he was still with his fiance....I couldn't do that as she was my friend.....the next day he left her for me.......we have had our ups and downs but he has stood by me through my lupus, weight gain, parents passing away...everything...I can't imgaine my life without him.....we balance each other out perfectly....he is very serious and uptight at times and I am the calm one that sees everything in a good light.....I am very positive he is not.....Love is very powerful.

Eva

Lovely to hear these stories. I also met my current husband on line. Yahoo Personals, actually. I emailed every guy in the tri-state area who wrote in their profile that they spoke French. I figured even if I didn't like them, I could keep up my language skills. Only one guy responded. That was Youba. He asked if I was French, I said no, American. He said where did you learn French? I said Mali. He said I'm from Sikasso (a city in Mali). I hope you speak Bambara. So my next email to him was in Bambara. See, 14 years prior I had lived in Mali as a Peace Corps Volunteer. He was shocked and we have been like two peas in a pod ever since. I love that I can speak to his two moms and all his siblings and their kids in their native tongue. It makes everything easier. I'm telling you, you never know in life!

Thanks for the love letter. I got divorced this week, and it's lovely to read your sentiments.

I met my husband in a local chat room on Yahoo too! We were chat buddies for 6 months before we met in person, I wasnt looking for a man and he didnt want to date anyone with kids.....ha! You never know where love will find you....then i spent the next 18 months trying to find something wrong with him.....he has 2 flaws; is a very stubborn diabetic, and he hates seafood! Thats it....after that long I gave up, realized hes almost perfect and married him

YAY! Yahoo. It can really change a life.