I guess we all struggle. This one is really hard to cope with and not do something I would not be able to undo. I will not say what because I know it is against the rules and wouldn't want to upset anyone. God is testing me and I am losing the fight. The worst part is doctors can NOT figure it out. Even with antineasuea medication I am vomiting. God please hold my hand tonight and do not leave my side. Where are You? God Bless you all. Many of you struggle far more. I know I shouldn't ask why. Crying has come and gone. Where am I? Who am I? WILL this end? I have switched medications, I have stopped medications, I have had tests. Gastritis but no reason. I am coating my stomach like I am suppose to. At this point I am not able to eat and can't keep down liquids. I am throwing up a lot. I have been throwing up a LOT for two days. I do NOT want to become dehydrated again. I had to get fluids not that long ago. Please make it end. TORTURE TORTURE TORTURE God Bless You Dear Friends "If you could read my mind you would be in tears"
"Who cares when I cry"
"A smile just hides the tears we hold inside."
- Me (IDNK) |
"I have suffered from depression most of my life, but had some long, non-depressed times. The last 16 years have been an on-going, constantly worsening nightmare for me medically, socially and with my family. 11/2008 to the present has been the worst time in my life, and new things just keep piling up. During that time I’ve gone from being mostly homebound to being totally homebound due to the errors of about 2 dozen doctors who overmedicated me so badly that I came home w/ 4 conditions I didn’t go in with. I spent months wanting to die, and finding MDJ may well have saved my life. It’s one of the worst feelings to know that nobody on earth needs you for anything; but now that I’ve been a group leader for awhile, there are people here who need me. Thanks MDJ." (Sylvia4648)
