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Dulce316 Posts: 26
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Hello all! My name is Tonya, and I'm 24. Well, I'll be 25 in a couple weeks. I was diagnosed with ADHD a couple years ago, and I self diagnosed myself with dysgraphia. I read it's common to have both because of the ADHDer's overactive thought process. My thoughts are constantly going (more with stress and lack of sleep which go hand in hand haha), and it's really hard for me to get them on to paper... if I get them on there at all. I'm in college. Barely hanging on, but I'm there. Lately, I've been told that maybe I wasn't cut out for school, and I should drop out, but I can't. I feel like I've quit almost everything I've ever started, and if I can do this, I can do anything. Plus, I love to learn. I'm going to school for psychology, and my goal is to be a school counselor. I want to help other people like myself.. The one's who feel like "WTF is wrong with me!?". I'd love to talk at a college, and say "Look! I did it, and so can you! It's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really really hard, but you have to keep going no matter how many times that little voice inside you says <<nagging voice>> 'you're gonna faillll... you're gonna faillll...'" I'm capable of good grades because I was a straight A student at the local community college. Now I'm in a university (I always tell myself that they accepted me because of my learning disabilities -- self confidence issues -- another lovely characteristic with ADHD). The sad thing that I've learned during the past couple semesters is that you can be the smartest person in the room, but if you can't write, then you don't measure up to that "smart" standard our educational system has created. I'm going to continue on this college rant because I'm in the process of writing a paper, and I've called it quits for the night. It's really discouraging because no matter how many times I write an outline and a mindmap (which I do pages and pages of), or reread the material, I just can't get it down into words that make sense. I'm always questioning what I write and the format and the words and the punctuation and the grammar... OH look! a bird just flew by the window! I've even tried the voice recording, but it usually gets lost along with all the other essay prep. Okay. I've lost motivation to write anymore. I hope there are others out there that understand. Maybe you can give me some tips? I've gotten more tips from "normal" people, and I try to explain to them that my mind is wired differently than "normal" students, and it's difficult to fully understand when you don't experience it yourself. Thanks for listening. Tonya |
