Incest Survivor Online Support Group

this still consumes me

i still hurt myself because of what they did

so what now?

will i constantly hate and hurt myself?

i wish there was something to help me forget, alcohol and pot dont seem to help, too short term, so im still stuck.

someone please tell me what to do?

after explaining some of my feelings i cant get get anti-depressants, which i think could be the only way forward. i cant afford to live like this and im scared i will get worse.

i wish life was simple.

i think one way forward might be what i did when i first started down the path to healing. i got a book and workbook that were extremely helpful. The Courage To Heal by Ellen Bass and Laura Davis. i'm also still in the healing process but this gave me a good place to start.

you won't always hurt and hate yourself. there is hope.

Dear helpme, so sorry to hear how much this is still a part of your life. It never goes away but things do get better over time. I think the best way to rid yourself of what's inside you is to let it out wether it be by writing it down, such as yellowroze suggested or to talk it out. It's always best to do it with a supportive person, such as a therapist or in a survivor group setting. Once they share and you realize it is okay to talk about it, it makes it easier to share yourself. Let us know how you're doing, okay?

Hey Helpme and welcome to the group. Yellow and Floridian have given you some great advice. i think that if you aren't already seeing a therapist that would be a good place to start. everyone's situation is somewhat unique so what might have worked for any of us might not work the same for you. a therapist could definitely help with processing what happened to you as well as create an individualized treatment plan. the group is also a great place for support so i hope u'll continue to use this resource as well.