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My name is Melissa. I am not an addict. My dad died when i was 10 (i am 31 now) from a heroin od and my mother has been doing heroin ever since. However she has been on the methadone program for 20 years. If you call it a program. childhood with a heroin addict as a mother was nothing special. constantly moving because of evictions, having strange people over, finding needles around the house, or getting beatened when she was sick. She never did it in front of us but sometimes i would look for something in her room and i would see the drugs. Well as soon as i turned 19 i moved out. From then on she could not afford an apartment by herself bc i wasnt there paying the bills. She moved in with family members and before long they fought. My only concern was my sister and brother. My brother pretty much always lived with me wihen we got older. I took my sister in when she was 13 ( i was 21) bc mom was in a drug house when it was raided. I had no money and was struggling.i had to ask my mothers sisters to help me register my little sister for school bc mom as in jail.. she only spent 2 weeks or so in jail then i bailed her out.she was clean and beautiful..not for long though so jump ahead 10 years. she still on methadone however i still expect her of using as well.. she now lives with me bc she as recenlty evicted. its rough.. shes such am manipulater is she using still?? i sometimes expect it. she waitresses at a diner and is very slow there however my sister works with her and shes complaining they make no money. but mom has no bills...only her clinis fee every week and never has money. if shes using its not like it was when we were kids but i dont look at her any different. she irks me...but she is my mom..i aksed her many times to go away and she wont. i am looking to meet heroin addicts or other family memebers who know where i am coming from...to help me understand Thank you everyone who has offered me advice, knowledge and
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