hi everyone,
well i guess if anyone is still out there lol, well i no my posts are far and few between but i didn't want to leave my bf be hide regardless if we stay together or not, i don't wish that life on anyone... so ive been waiting intill we were both ready and gave myself time to do lots of research and buy lots of stuff to help kick dope. my bf and I kinda got into h together. he let his friend move in with us who did h. and my bf started using it behide my back for about 9 10 months before i found out. when i did catch him he convinced me to not leave him, so i didn't, i tired to help him but he didn't want it... he said he like it. everyone in my house was always nodding out everyday... i would just go straight to my room when i got home bc i knew i wouldn't be able to talk to any of them but they always looked like they felt good..... well me and my bf share our money so my money was paying for this too! so i sat there alone for id say about 4 months when they offered for me to try some... so i figured why not, i even keep doing it I didn't really understand how TERRIBLE it is to come off of this shit, i never seen my bf or any of my roommates get sick like that, at that time me and my bf still had money. i guess i thought you were just sick for 3-4 days i didnt no it was pure torture where time stands still..... so idk thats my story.
well ive tired to kick a few times in between these post but gave in , but this time with the subonoxe and sodium ascorbate (pure vitamin c) I have done the best this time... o yeah and a good friend lol
im on day 4 now and doing good ive been using suboxone, sodium ascorbate, muti-vitmain, b-complex vitamin, a friend, imoddium, sleeping pills.
last dose of h 10p half bag may 11, 2012
Day 1 -- may 12----
12pm – 2mg sub
10pm- 2mgs sub
sleep in as long as i could than took 2mg sub when the first sub kicked in around two hours after taking it, i felt alot better. i still had hot flashes every now and again, and there were times i begin to feel bad but i had a friend stay with us so he was here to play movies and feed us and stuff. i felt ok enough to take a walk. i tired to go to sleep with no more subs but i couldnt sleep so i gave in and took 2 more mgs and sleep decent.
day 2
315pm 1mg sub
745: 1mg sub
1am-1mg sub
woke up kinda of ok, this is deff no where near as bad as cold turkey but it does feel endless. time seems to never move and i feel pretty down but i have some depression pills my friend gave me and they help a little... today i do feel pretty sick not tortured but sick, but it makes sense bc im trying to just take the subs at 1mgs intervals only when REALLY needed... like almost puking needed. i figured the less suboxone in my system the easy it will be to stop taking them in the next few days. all day ive thought of just getting h. but i really dont want to start this over and i no i will have to do this one day so why not now... hope i feel better tomorrow or time at least moves at a normal pace.
day 3
1230pm- 2mg sub
1:45pm- 5g vit c
345pm- 4-5g vit c
640pm- 4-5g vit c
9:20pm- 4g vit c
today i woke up feeling alot better than yesterday, still somewhat off but better. maybe its bc i took 1mg at midnight? at noon i took 2mgs when i stated to feel bad and that was my last does of subs. i started the vitamin c and surpislty this has been the best day so far. I'm really shocked bc my roommate told me yesterday there was no way id feel better today... i hope it lasts i really do, every time i start to feel hot flashes i take about 4 to 5 grams of vitamin c and i feel better with in 5 to 10 mins.
i guess the real fun begins tomorrow when i take no subs. or in the next few days has the subs i do have in my system leave.... im just gonna keep trying to take the vitamin c and stay positive... every day i go for a walk and stay outside for about an hour. today time didn't go so slow. i was very tired tho... but my bf decided he wanted to move back home away from the h right AWAY so we have been packing all day... i pretty tired lol gonna see if i can just go to sleep tonight with no subs...
o yeah as far as my bf hes been doing good. he's thinking about staying on the subs, his mom thinks its a good idea... but still hes only been doing about 4mgs a day... i worried about him getting addicted to the subs but i do know he has an addicting personally so this might be the best thing for now... this way if he does use h the subs will block it... its up to him... i didnt make him quit at all, i just let it be know that i was quitting and he would watched me try to do it a few times and this time he tired with me, im really happy for him... i hope he keeps doing good..
well that it for now, good nite every one and good luck with your own detoxes! peace and love, peace and love
