I'm 29 and just got diagnosed with gum disease. I'm battling TMJ which is sooooo painful and i hate not being able to laugh or smile without pain, or be active for fear of cracking my teeth. i wear a top and bottom mouthguard at nite so i talk like rocky balboa YO ADRIAN lol. im supposed to wear them during the day but i hate it so much i dont always wear them. fortunately i have a wonderful dentist. but the gum disease thing has me freakin' out. i keep wondering if its from kissing someone or smoking or if its just something i did or whatever. and i broke up w a bf last year and got involved with another guy soon after who didnt let me live my life. and now im struggling with, okay im newly single i should be enjoying life and now i might have to talk to everyone i date about whether or not i am contagious and i feel like i put off 8 years of my life with someone i thought was The One and these are the things im worried about. Then i have PCOS to top it all off! grrrrr!!!!! so that means acne that comes and goes and my skin itches and my hair isnt as thick as it used to be among the many many other things i have to worry about. i could stand having hair loss, or acne, or losing my teeth because i THINK i may need yet another pulled and already cracked some and had them extracted so i feel its an ongoing battle. i guess ya could say im angry at the world right now. im confused and depressed and ive long ago lost my faith in God. the pain is just unbearable from the tmj and the good news is today that i actually stretched and popped my neck and THAT did more good than popping pills for it. i felt so much better after that. but im still depressed. trying to find someone who understands what im going thru or can lend advice on approaching the sensitive subject to my dates as to why i cant kiss them. i just feel so violated by the ravages of nature!!! i just feel like now that im single and broke away from my stupid ex of 8 years and this guy that freaked me out so i stayed longer than i should have even when i told him WE WERE JUST FRIENDS but he wasnt havin it, well now i have this to contend with and i missed out on my youth and now i lost a little of my youth and my health is just spiirraaallliiiiiinnnnnnggggg downward and is taking a toll on my looks. not that im vain. i just wanted to look NORMAL! grrrrrr!!!!!! |
