Gender Identity Disorder Support Group

You seem to be lost in transit, you are wanting to be happy but you aren't willing to take the neccicary steps to get that happiness to happen, I am making alot of sacrafices along the path & I know that others here are doing the same, that is why I emphasise the fact of this is for you not your familily members or your friends they aren't the ones that are living your life you are, so put aside what you want to do to make them happy & realize that in this transition you are going to be losing alot in the shoert run but gaining tons in the long run.

I think after all the crystal clear vision I had of what I want and how to get it the fear has finally set in.

There is no going back once I make that commitment but I am trapped between both lives now. I listened to you and again thought that I could do this, I tried to go full drag but the minute I thought someone would see me I hid.

I am making another appointment with a therapist but I feel like she is going to give me bad news.

I know all of this is fear but I cant undrstand why I am afaid. I have been accepted by everyone I have told but still I clig to the safety of my old life.

I think that I am starting to see what you are doing you are wanting to be female but you are putting things about the female in male & also derogitory terms, 'cause going drag means a man dressing like a woman or vise versa, but if you are going to go out & live as you are wanting to or to also go out & experience life as your true self then you are going to be more likely to do it, I know that there are some contracdicting things in there but what I am mainly speaking of is the mindset 'cause w/ me it is helping that my wife is finnally starting to refer to me in the female manner 'cause it is making it easier for me to see myself as female also.

your right but I dont know ho to shake that mindset. I have reverted back to the person I was before I first came here. No its worse I no longer see myself as a woman in a mans body but as a man yearning to be a woman.

I even have someone close, who really cares about me and doesnt care (or at least she doesnt seem to care) that I have GID.

I feel alone though, more now than when I was trying to deal with this alone and every step forward now sends me two steps back.

I apologise for coming here and dumping this on you as if you have the answers. I havnt tried to help anyone else here in months and im sorry about that.

Hello Lost Doll, I Feel The Same Except For The Other Way Around, I Have Longed To Be A Boy Since I Was 5 Or So And Now Im 15 Its Got So Bad I Tried Suicide. Some People Are So Careless With What They Say But Now Ive Found This Group Ive Found Some People In The Same Position x

Welcome Kenzie can you please make an intro in the intro thread & also it is good to have you hear.

Well lost doll it seems that you have hit a stalemate once again I'm not sure how much help I'm going to be about this @ the moment I will come back later & see if I can help better but 1 thing that I can say for sure is find your GID therapist I think that you said you made another appointement w/ them & stay w/ them they will be a tremendos help to you. I will come back later & add more.

Thanks Sofia. I was talking it out a doctor today (my therapist appointment isnt for a few week) though shocked that I wante to do this he did get to the heart of my problem. I am afraid of giving everything I am to this because I am looking for a way out if something goes wrong, if things get hard I want a way to get back to this life as if nothing happened.

I know now that it will never be like that.

Hi KenzieJay

Nice to meet you.

I have been where you and I think you know what I mean when I say that suicide is never an option. It is over and though I dont know what if anything comes next I know that te pain you feel is just transfered to those you leave behind.

We are all going through our own stuff here but if you ever need to talk or you ever just feel down feel free to message me I will always answer as I know Sofia will. If you ever have any problems she is the most understanding and caring person I know. I feel honoured that she calls me her friend.