Anyone else watch Eli Stone?

Why tonight? Well everything was going fine, till the end parts where Patty was in the Church, the Earthquake didn't happen, and she got all pissy with Eli and told him he can't keep doing as he's doing, and can't feel that he's "led" to work certain cases because the people REALLY need him (which is what the show has been about all this time) and screams at him that HE'S SICK, HE HAS AN ILLNESS AND HE NEEDS HELP, and basically to leave her the he!! alone. I almost totally lost it. I even had to go outside in the 40 degree temps with no coat just to cool off.

I have been told that so many times by ignorant people. YOU ARE SICK, YOU HAVE AN ILLNESS, and the worst one....YOU NEED HELP!! Well, no, that isn't the worst thing I've been told....I've been told that "I OBVIOUSLY NEED NEW MEDS BECAUSE I OBVIOUSLY HAVE A PERSONALITY PROBLEM" and that one stupid Dr who told me even though 12 other Drs confirred on my terrible swelling that I'm not swollen, I'm FAT AND LAZY and need to GET OFF MY A$$ AND EXCERCISE.

Has anyone else every watched a t.v. program that something happened like this and you just went off?? I've NEVER had that happen before. And....until I finally got my diagnoses and was able to actually tell people what is wrong with me, it was THEN that people decided I need other meds because I suddenly have a personality problem. That chaps my hide too! They don't know me. They don't know what I go through. I'm just agitated tonight now. I wasn't until that part in the t.v. show. Then so many emotions came out. Terrible.

I'd love to know if anyone else has experienced any of this? Also, how many people have lost their friends or family over their conditions? This week I kid you not, I have lost ALL of my friends outside this group. And last night when I was talking to one close family member and I was talking about some new things I read about Fibro and CFS she had to get off the phone and go to bed. I wanted to say what the he!! you called me 2 nights ago at 11:38 and talked till way past midnight, and suddenly YOU need to get off the phone?!?!

Sorry for the rant.

Pamela {please}

I wish tons of love and hugs!

Favorite sites besides MDJunction:
http://www.invisableillness.com
& the Fibro Store at:
http://www.cafepress.com/artisticability

Friends---I have 2. They are both nurses and have been there for me every step of the way. My other friends, like you said the ones I have pulled through lifes crisis and taken up for at work and thought loved me through and through. Gone like the wind. I made the mistake of thinking the people I worked with were my friends. I learned that they are aquaintances. I have never gotton a card or phone call from the woman I worked with every day of my life. The one I told my secrets too and she told hers to me. The one who cried on my shoulder. The one who needed me all of the time. I got hurt, she found out I wasn't coming back. DONE!!! This really ate me up, until one day I was praying about this and I had this feeling that the Lord was telling me to send her a card and if she didn't respond than I was to let it go. I did and she didn't and I have tried to let it go. I don't think about her that much. I am just telling you this to let you know you are not the only one. THAN... I am at the hospital for a doctors appt and I see her and she wants to chat like old times and I was nice but distant. Oh, I left out the most important part----She kept tellimg my friend (one of the two nurses) that she had been calling me and I didn't answer the phone. Well, I told my friend she was lying and the card proved that. If you don't want to call don't call but don't lower yourself to lie about it.

Oh, no the pain meds have me ranting. See, we all rant. And yes, I rant over TV show too, it doesn't take much to set me off. My husband says I am like a whole different person.

Well, back to bed,

Sandi

It really didn't bother me what she said, I don't exactly know why, I guess I'm just so used to getting beat down, it's like it's my life & at this point I just feel things will never change for me.

Friends, what are they? I don't have any, I don't talk to co-workers anymore either, whom I thought I had a really good relationship with some. My best friend is my husband & I thank God every day for that. Heck even my own Mother brushes me off, she only wants to talk when it's convienent for her, I don't really tell my parents how I am because they will worry about me & live like 1 1/2 hrs away. I cried one time on the phone back in like January & they were ready to come running to help me, we really do have a good relationship even though she gets me off the phone.

I thinks sometimes what's going on with us is it hurts the ones we love even more because they can't help us to get well & there are many people out there who just can't deal with somebody being sick at all

I hope I made some sense