hipmama42
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I'd be happy to participate in any informal group on this forum who would help me stay on the beam with a weight management program. After gaining and losing the same pounds over and over and then putting more on, having to go up a clothes size or two, and having three sizes of clothes in my closet, I have lost the enthusiasm, energy, self-discipline, and at times, even the desire to diet -- oops, the dreaded "d word." I mean stick to the "healthy eating plan." It is so terribly hard for me to lose weight now with the meds I'm taking that pack on the pounds, and not having the energy to exercise much. When I do force myself to do some aerobic exercise, even walking, I am in such pain the next day that I can hardly get out of bed to do my required chores and take care of my kids. The depression from feeling bad physically so much of the time, and being in pain, makes watching my weight seem like one more onerous chore. I stress eat and I eat for pleasure and comfort, and at times it feels like it is not worth the extra stress and self-condemnation of trying so hard to lose weight and not being able to, or of continuing to relapse and gain all of the weight back and more. So I am torn between working to accept the fat me as I am and make the best of it, or to torment myself with guilt and self-loathing for being so fat and lacking in discipline. I never used to be this way about exercise, in fact I loved, it, but since fibro and a bad knees and foot injuries which make exercise difficult (beside swimming which is expensive because of having to belong to a health club, at least where I live,and a hassle, not to mention, I usually pay for it the next day. In order to burn off enough calories to make a difference, I have to exercise harder and longer, and I don't seem to be able to do that any more. Never-the-less, watching the weight is easier when you are doing with others. Right now my goal is to not gain any more weight and to stay motivated to eat healthy foods. When I am depressed and feeling bad about myself, I stop caring about even trying to eat right and lose weight. |
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