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hi again... i thought i would share my 'how to' on getting this/these syndromes, and such. i fell off of my delivery truck, and had appendicitis. haha, (ahh, the memories). without getting too yucky, when i landed i was on the outside ankle. so i pulled apart my bone, and ankle and disintegrated my inside ankle bone.. i have a donor ankle bone! how cool.. but i still can't dance. point is.. i had 4 surgeries for repair in 3 years, many procedures in each operation, and had appendicitis in between! and oh my gosh, in all of that... i was losin' my mind... and stopped having my monthly... and was put on two kinds of hormones! from what i have learned there is at least two kinds of ways to 'get' it, and i did 2 of them in 3 years. all i wanted to do was go back and drive. i had the perfect job, making the perfect money... my office was small, but man what a view, yeah? the most strangest part of the whole thing... and i do mean strange, was when i was home from the hospital the first time for about 4 days, my left leg and stuff stopped hurting for about maybe 30 seconds. and suddenly my right leg and stuff hurt so bad, i cried out in pain, and stayed crying for about 5 minutes, long enough to get over the shock, and access the situation. enough time to fell it go away again, for a shorter period of time.. and go back to the left where it belong. soooo, after i went through the scariest year of testing for some reallly scary stuff, i found out it was this, and have been told that what happened to me, shows what a lot of professionals theorize about the brain screwing up routing during. . this that has taken my friends and family away, that has taken my art away... this that has taken all the fun stuff away. here i sit at its mercy, i try to rise up often and fight movement. vacuum the the floor, stretch my arms ride apart.. (owwie) folding a load of towels. prepare the vegetables myself... but i pay. don't we pay a hefty sum for deciding to just 'do something' on the days it seems bearable? in the beginning, i would have like up to 5 good days at a time, it just seemed more like a hassel than something that would eventually kick my but, and show me just how strong i could be. and i can be, and am most of the time... i have been on some crazy strong drugs, stuff that made me seriously doubt reality (before i pondered it). i took myself off of a whole lot of things, i don't recommend that to anyone, it was just what i had to do. i have raised 3 young'uns have one more at home, been married for almost 18 years. thanks for taking the time, karen (ponderingreality) |
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