Doctors Appointment Tomorrow

I have been hiding the pain from most people because i didnt want to burdon them. That has caused me to lash out at my loved ones. Im hoping my doctor will change my "happy pills" as we call them. Im on 60 mg of cymbalta and its not working anymore. I feel so out of control. The 12 Vicodin dr gave me are already gone. i sort of feel like him only giving me the 12 vicodin per month is a slap in the face. i just cant cope with the pain from my fibro and my CP. im trying so hard to keep it together but its not working anymore.

im scared the doctor will look at me and say i need to suck it up and stop whining, even though i know thats not going to happen.

I talked to hubby tonight. lately, i feel like he has been coming down on me very hard even though he knows im having the worst pain of my life. if i snap at him even the least bit he calls me out on it and we get in a huge argument. i took care of him through 4 reconstructive knee surgeries. he was terrible to live with during his recovery but i didnt hold any of that against him. not to mention, he is now on first shift because a guy he works with hurt his back...hubby usually works 2nd shift. he works 12 hr days to try to catch up. i really do appreciate him and everything he does for me, but i feel like he is holding that over my head. he is hard to live with sometimes too, but i never...EVER hold anything he says against him. i chalk it up to him having a tough time and go on. i explained it to him and told him i would appreciate the same consideration and compassion that i showed him through his surgeries (which went on over the course of 2 years). I told him to cut me some darn slack for once and suck it up. maybe im being insensitive, but i just feel like he is adding to my pain.

everything is better now. we talked it out and he understands and he apologized for the way he has been treating me. i apologized to him for lashing out at him. i told him if he shows more compassion for my situation, i wont lash out at him because i wont be frustrated as much. he definately sees the connection now.

am i asking too much of him by asking for some understanding?

I know i rambled, but thank you for reading this if you got this far. i really needed to vent.

Please pray for me tomorrow. I am very nervous for some reason and i have to go to the doctor by myself because hubby has to work.

Thanks for reading.

Hugs,

Amanda

Karen

I had a horrible reaction to cymbalta....I felt totally crazy. Lashing out at everytone, I just couldn't keep it together. I wanted to die. And coming off it...OMG....nightmare, and I only took it for a month. Be careful. Do it SLOW.

No, you are not asking to much for him to have compassion. Give him the information he needs to help him understand what you are going through. Chances are he really doesn't get it. My hubby is wanting to help me, but he got frustrated and angry until he read some posts on this site. It helped. Remember, you are not alone.

Good luck and God bless,

Cindy

ANDDDDDDDDDD....way to go with the hubby!! I'm glad it all worked out for you!! You're soo sweet!

{{{{Fibro Hugs}}}

I just wanted to touch base with you before you go to the doc tomorrow. You'll be okay, promise. I agree with you that 12 Vicodin for a month is not okay. In fact, Vicodin for Chronic Pain/Fibromytes is not okay.

It is used for short term break through pain, not for the 24 hour pain that most of us suffer. It is a slap in the face but you have to get the doc to come around to you. Does he treat a lot of Chronic Pain patients?

You may want to ask him what he has he found works best for some of his other patients that have constant pain. I try to always give them the power over me, for the moment, and I ask lots of questions. Making him have to think of all the folks he treats with the same or similiar condition as mine. I am very lucky my doc is not only on board with Chronic Pain/Fibro but he is also married to a pharmasist.

I'm glad that you and your hubby have talked it through and your in a good space with him before going to the docs tomorrow. I'm not sure that anyone truely gets this unless they are going through it themselves. Remember men our fixers. Many times their "not understanding" is because they hear us complain and they can't fix it so they become frusterated. Not to be mean but when men even have a cold they are always sicker then we are. He has seen you as the pillar of strength and maybe it scares him when we are showing our weekness. I don't have the answers but I do relate.

If you want to go over your objective for the appt. tomorrow let me know, I'm here for you.

If I don't hear from you tonight please let me know how it went when you get back.

Say a prayer before you go in, asking for the right words and everything will work out okay.

Take Care,

Janice

Sherry

I know what your going through with the husband. Monday 10/8 me and mine had a horrible fight. I again was feeling bad and could'nt go somewhere, with him. He screamed at me and made me feel so gulity and ashamed that I just got dressed and left the house for awhile.I WAS so tired and sick I should not have been on the road,but he made me so angry. the things he said hurt more than the pain I am in. I went and sat at our local state police barracks parking lot( small town no local police)...I was going to have him removed from the house. Just when i was ready to go in my 13 yr old daughter ,called me on my cell ...and begged me to come home. she is the ONLY reason I did. i indure the pain for her, I do all of it for her. i am at the end of my rope ..with my husband. if I had no children with him i would have be gone years ago. I don't know how much more i can take. He always apologizes and makes promises he does'nt keep ..I know by next week he'll be back to complaining and yelling at me for ALL that HE has to go through. i just am lost and numb. i pray and read my bible looking for hope and strength ... seems it's hard to find any,anywhere.

((((HUGS))))

Betty