Lagarto26
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Hello, Not many people know me on this site, and i haven't been online in a while. But I find myself in need of some major support. I don't know what to do anymore, i don't know how to live in this world if this is all i can accomplish. My life is completely lame, i don't have many friends, i cant drive, don't have a car, and cant seem to keep a job to save my life. Plus i am 600$ in debt to my parents and am too tired to go to work. I recently quit my job at TJMaxx which is a clothing store. I just stopped going to work, so they gave me less and less hours. So i quit. I know its my fault i lost the job, but i don't know what to do differently. I got a new job, at Triple Play, which is a amusement thingy with bowling, go-carts, mini golf, lazer tag, an arcade, and inside water park. Its not high stress, its like the perfect job, cuz i just get paid to stand there and give people their prizes in return for their tickets they get from playing the games. And yet i don't want to go, i get tired and in pain and i just want to say SCREW IT and go back to sleep. I have only worked there for three days, and on my forth day i stayed home cuz i was too tired to go. I don't know what to do. How am i supposed to have a life if i cant even get started. Eventually I will have the crappiest work exp. and no one will hire me. I mean the longest job i have had was 3 months. I don't know how to be an adult with all this pain and fatigue. I see other people i love, they push through there pain and fatigue and do what they have to do. They are strong and i feel so weak in comparison. Its so hard to live in this world because people expect you to be strong, and i just cant. I try and try and try, but i alway give in. I just feel so tired, tired of being like this. Tired of feeling so defeated and alone. I don't know how to to keep my job. I get so tired, like i did when i went to school. I would get so exhausted and just give in and not go, or i would just sleep through my classes. And with the job i have now, its so slow and boring that i want to fall asleep and almost have a few times. Its so GOSH DARN STUPID!! i need a low stress job cuz i will get to overstimulated, but in a low stress job all i want to do is sleep. I seriously doubt the gov. will help me out with disability sense i am only 17 and broke. So all i can to is try and fail and move on to the next job, but they next job will stop coming because unemployment is going up and no one will want to hire me. I just don't how to live in a world where these are choices. How can i have a life, if i cant even keep a job. How can i be successful if all i truly want is to sleep. I don't know what to do anymore... |
