Feeling hopeless again

I'm loosing hope. I can't live like this!It's to much.

My right arm has a knot in it thats causing me terrible pain.My doctor put me on muscle relaxers for it before and they never helped it.My right kidney hurts terribly and I know my doctor will say it's just back pain, but it sure doesn't feel that way.

I keep getting vibration sensations throught my upper body.

My mom is talking about us getting a place together since I'm basically useless because I'm sick so much.

My doctors don't seem to understand how bad off I am.

I wish I could video tape one day in my life and they would watch it so they could get a clue.

My legs hurt so bad I don't want to walk.

I'm 27 years old, my life is not suppose to be like this.

I'm scared the pain clinic wont get me on something that helps.I don't mind time released meds but I want out of this pain so bad that I wish they could at least give me a few fast acting ones.

I'm scared they will try me on something that doesn;t do well with me yet again.

I wish I could just tell them what I know helps and they would give it to me so I could feel a little better.

Sorry for being downer.

They had put me on Ultram Er 200mg and the Fentynal patch. I could only take the patch once because I found out I'm allergic to the Fentynal.

Then I did exactly as they asked about me calling in my script of Ultram 5 days ahead of time and then it needed a doctors authorization.

I called the pain clinic two times and the pharmacy faxed them something twice.

I'm going to the pain clinic again next Wenesday, but I don;t know what they will put me on.

I feel like they are not taking very good care of me.

Post edited by: cadburry, at: 05/10/2008 18:46

Post edited by: cadburry, at: 05/10/2008 18:46

{{Soft & Gentle Hugs}}