Oh God, please help me!!

I have been seriously thinking of ways to end it this whole week. I even wrote letters to everyone in my family. Today seems like it could be the day I give in. Both my husband and son work until 10pm this evening..........HELP ME STOP FEELING THIS WAY!! Should I take all my pain pills, should I cut myself, should I take a drive in my car???????? I know that this is very, very shelfish and I KNOW that my family would be devistated and God would never forgive me.......but is going to Hell instead of heaven at the end of the day any different than living in constant Hell on earth!! I have not stopped crying all day...the pain is more than I can deal with!!

I don't even know what I am asking my fibro friends for....I know that you all are here for me just as my family is.........but I just can't do this anymore!!!

I don't know if I am going to make it thru this one....please, please help me somehow!!! I am so terribly lost..........

Puddles

Melissa

Call your husband at work and tell him that you need him to come home immediately! You definitely do NOT need to be by yourself right now.

Next, call someone (neighbor, family, friend, etc) to come and be with you until your husband can get there.

Puddles, you CAN get through this. Does your doctor's office have someone oncall after hours?? Touch base with them tonight. Spare no details in letting them know just how bad you are feeling.

You can do it! you can do it!

Sending you a big, soft hug

I know the pain you are feeling. I am in pain every day and there are times when I don't understand why I have to go thru the pain. Just when I feel like I can't deal with life anymore, something happens that gives me a glimpse of hope. It might be a phone call, an endearing word from someone, the chirping of the birds...anything. It sounds silly, but I know that there is good all around me. It's just hard to see it thru the pain at times.

Is there anyone you can call? A neighbor? Your husband (could he come home to be with you)? Another family memeber? Please don't do anything drastic today. Keep talking with us...you can PM me as well if you would like. There are others here that feel your pain as well. We are here for you...let us help you. Please send me a note back. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

I was so hysterical the night I finally went to the ER I couldn't even talk. You have to get releife and it has to be good releife then you can talk to your doctor without ending up being admitted into a psych ward on suicide watch. They can get you on some medicine to help you.

Please don't do this. I know how hard it is to live like this but we all must stay strong! Don't let this thing beat you!

I'm praying for you and I'm here for you if you need to you can PM me.

STAY STRONG

Puddles

What about like Bkwrm said...what about calling your dr on call to discuss how you are feeling? The drs on call are there to help. Maybe they can even make some other suggestions that you can try if you don't want to go to the ER? Just keep talking with us....let us help you, OK? If you decide to go to the ER, just let us know so we don't worry. I will keep you in my thoughts & prayers.