The easiest things are now SO difficult-Disability

It means alot to hear/read "don't give up"! Sometimes it does feel easier to give up - stay in bed, pull the covers over my head and let the world just pass by! Can you guys relate to feeling like that? Do you find it hard sometimes to concentrate, focus and understanding what seems would be simple things? I am having a real hard time at work. I forget ALOT! things that would normally be easy for me ...simple things I cant understand? Do you have difficult times with things that you have done all your career? I am struggling at work. It's a long story but the so want me to quit. The pressure and stress of doing an 80 hr per pay period work in now 64 hours is not A) not feasible killing my spirit becuase I can not succed and therefore C) physically My syptoms are worse. On Tuesday I go for a nerve block and I am out until Thursday. I plan on asking my Adv. Pain spclst to take me out for 3 months. I am praying that he will - at that point I am not sure if I am eligible for unemployement as I am not eligible for FMLA yet as I have not worked 1250 hours. Even so I wouldnt want to go back to that job. So if they lay me off for being on medical leave where my position "is not protected" and I eligible for UNEMPLOYMENT after disability? does any one have any insight to this type of situation? I need all the encouragement, love and prayers. This is only my second time on this site and everyone was wlecomed me so warmly - I just dont have the energy to turn the computer on when I get home - so I am rarely on the computer. But I need help and I will look tomorrow.

I do understand what you mean about remembering things. I can't tell you how often I look like an idiot because I can't remember something and people don't understand fibro. I even do this with my doctors.For example I went to the surgion and he said that he was going to schedule me for surgery and they would call me with the date, well when I got to checkout I couldn't remember any of this and I had to have the lady call my doctor and ask if I needed to reschedule ad I had just gotten told this by the doctor! When she said I was being scheduled for surgery it hit me and I was so emberassed that I walkedout as quickly as I could. Other people just don't understand and they assume we are slow at times and then other times we are normal.It's crazy, but we have to live with it and learn to laugh at ourselves.

Barbara