The long wait to get into the pain clinic and for what, another let down. I was so sure I was going to be feeling better today. I just knew it. I put my Fentynal patch on at 3pm today and I can't tell a bit of a difference so I called the pharmacy and asked them when it should start working and they said a couple of hours after taking it you should have noticed a difference. I got off the phone and started crying and my daughter happend to walk by and saw me crying and she was like whats wrong mom. I'm so tired of living. I thought this medicine was among the best of them. I thought I was going to feel better, but I still hurt so bad I want to go to a hospital, and now I'm going to have a migraine from all this crying. I just don't know how much more I can take. I want to go to my pain doctor and tell her to shove this patch where the sun doesn't shine and to just take me out back and shoot me, then problem solved she wont have to worry about her medications being abused and I wont be in all this pain. She said that she wanted to put me on the patch for now because thats what she feels comfortable with and it's hard to abuse. First of all I have no history of drug abuse, secondly I don't drink, and third I took a drug test for them and passes and they can drug test me anytime they like because I'm no drug abuser!!!!! I'm so tired of being treated like this. My only crime is that I'm in allot of pain, and the only thing I'm guilty of is wanting to find some releife! What should I do????? |
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