Its bad enough that I am starting to feel like I am being punnished but could you imaging having to relive this over and over and over??

NO THANKS!!

Sorry, this has just been laying really heavy in my head the past few days and I was wondering what others thought about it.

Thanks for being there

Are you talking about reincarnation? I don't believe we repeat our lives until we get everything right.

However that begin said I have not yet figured out what I am suppose to learn from my medical problems, except maybe slow down since my body just will not do the things I want to do

I know normals want you to "have a postive attitude" I just say would you have "a postive attitude" if you were been hit by a truck everyday of your life? cause that is what it feels like living in my body.

I tried the postive attitude saying and thinking "it would get better" "it could be worse for" "I am fine" I did this for 15yrs and ya know what I am tried of lying to myself and everyone around me

the truth is I am not fine..........my life is hell each and every minute

I think that for most of us, this site has become a lifeline where we can rant, vent, rage, complain, bitch, pray, care and comfort each other because we all truly understand that living and suffering with this disease is no picnic, and is a strength-sapping daily struggle. We can let it all hang out here, be totally honest and not lie about how we are feeling with a big smile on our faces, as we sometimes do in public and around friends and family.

Once I get my fears and anger out, I can face the world again, not as Polyanna, but as someone who bears her burdens with strength, courage, and dignity, and realizes that the important people in my life still love and accept me just as I am. I still have a lot to give, and I will celebrate what I can still contribute and look for that rainbow through the storm clouds. It takes practice, discipline, and efffective drugs but I am trying to be a good role model and power of example for my two boys, ages 10 and 12. As a single mom, I am their world, and the lessons they learn from how I handle my problems are going to stick with them for the rest of their lives.

Post edited by: hipmama42, at: 04/26/2008 10:25

I say just be the best you that you can be and everything will be fine

Not really reincarnation.....kind of like the movie groung hogs day. Now that I write it like that it sounds funny. Im just having a really bad time the past few days and some one said that to me and its laying heavy in my head thats all. Thanks.

Ohhhhh....now I see what you mean I'm a little slow today aren't I .

Did someone say that to you in a negative way...like it's something you've done (or not done) that is causing your illness??? I'm just asking for clarification before I get totally ticked that someone could be so insensitive.

I'm very sorry that you've been having such a bad time. I hope you're able to get some extra rest today. Try to take it easy and take some time for yourself.

Sending you a huge hug

Post edited by: Bkwrm398, at: 04/26/2008 14:06