I NEED YOUR HELP!!!!!

RIGHT NOW, this morning....I will switch to YOU and YOUR circumstances.

"Letting go" is not easy, how could it be? And why wouldn't you be scared -- I always feel that way too. As if I "should" be able to trust, but then I remember - I am human and in a bad place. God knows who I am, my thoughts and my fears and what is in my heart. I do the best I can and reach out as you did. I found moments, sometimes days and weeks where I feel safe and more at peace.

AND…. When I am MOST scared, when I need to rely on others -- I have found added comfort in also praying for the Doctors or Nurses. ( in your case maybe the lawyers, judges and doctors). That God touches the professionals in my life –

My simpleton prayer: Your Eyes not mine, Your Hearing not mine, Your words not mine -- Your will not mine.

(For me…...i think it covers all my bases. When I am really scared I know I can see and hear things differently and just for me – I reallllly need to watch what come out of my mouth... I need the to work for me, and i can be snappy or short if i get very scared. )

SO I ask (hee hee, Beg...) that God please touch my thoughts, words and perceptions so that I may speak AND be heard with Clarity and Compassion AND with a freedom from fear and anxiety.

Then I take it a little farther. My mom taught me this:

I do the SAME thing for the doctor or specialist I am about to see:

I always ask in prayer that they too HEAR me and speak to me with a freedom from whatever they are experiencing that time in their lives. Fear, Anxiety, their "stuff". That whatever frustrations, personal or professional that they may have, experiences or perceptions that while they are SEEING and HEARIN and ADVISING me that they too, are free.

I thank God for doing an "inside" job on me and invite Him into the situation and ask Him if He might do an inside job on ALL individuals that interact with my treatment - or - in this case -- the current circumstances.

I have ehard we are not supposed ot pray in specifics BUT i also beleive our prayers for others are STRONG. When two or more are gathered.."

So Darlin! I am asking in prayer NOW that you have peace and are free from fear for today and as you go forward.

AND THAT ALL WHO YOU MEET in the upcoming process can show you Clarity and Compassion!!!!

Amen -- i am thinking of you !!!

Auggie

Post edited by: auggie, at: 04/27/2008 05:49

dont worry so much

worrying is tuff on the heart

*hugs*

A friend of mine and I see the same dr. and she said that he had recommended that she sign up for SSD and had told her to have them call him so he could get her on it sooner. She said she signed up the middle of January and got it the end of February. So I guess having the doc. on your side doesn't hurt. She doesn't have fibro. She has COPD and heart problems from smoking all of her life and he said she can't be expected to work in her condition. He has never said that to me so I don't know what he tells SSD when he has to fill out papers and send them to them.

Sign up though because the sooner you sign up the sooner you will get the ball rolling. God Bless, Jan

Barbara