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Before I get dressed for bed and go take all my pills, I wanted to let you all know I wont be posting after tomorrow for a few days. Friday I go in to have an EP study http://www.hrspatients.org/patients/heart_tests/
electrophysiology_study.asp I already have a pacemaker but probably will come home with a brand new shiny ICD http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Implantable_cardioverter-
defibrillator I have myself in a tizzy about it because I remember when I had to get my pacemaker put in. You are not completely asleep, and I went through a lot of panic attacks during the procedure even with meds being pumped into me. I wish I didnt know this much about it and went in Fri not knowing what is going to go on. I have had 8 panic attacks since Saturday. I know I am driving dh crazy. But hopefully it will be all over and I will be home Saturday. IF anything happens, ( I know this is morbid but I am not afraid of dying) I want you all to know how much you all mean to me!! This board has been someplace where I can come and vent, and also help others. Kind of gave me a purpose like a job. Anyway, heres hoping you all have a pain free week!!!!  |
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