Then I have that damned car accident. I'm off line for a year and come back, immediately I'm asked to do a benefit raffle. I should have said no, really I should have. BUT I felt that maybe having a reason, a purpose was what I needed. Nope. There were a few new people who were jealous of me and the awesome reception I had coming back in. Life was made hell. ALL my friends have deserted me. I even have the ones who EVERY year at Christmas and Mother's Day want to commit suicide telling ME that "I" NEED MENTAL HELP!!!! Ok, I have pain, I have PTSD, Fibro, CPS, CFS, IBS, Central Nervous Something er other, RA, you name it and I have it, and yet "I" am the one who needs mental help! They have been talking about me behind my back. I get 6 emails in a row from the 67 year old who wants to off her self every Christmas, Mother's Day, her kids Birthdays, the G-kids B'days etc send me this:

pamela, you need to get some help. it is sad to see what this accident has done to you. please take me off your email list as i dont want to be involved in any more of you dramas. thankyou..and again, get some help girl..and be honest with them. dixie

Pamela, please get some help girl ...and take me off your email list. i am so sorry for your troubles but am also very tired of the drama. dixie

you are losing friends from your own actions girl. we are sorry about your troubles but are tired of the dramas and the things that we can see you are blowing up beyond what is needed..which feeds your mental issues. please take me off your mailing lists. dixie

What she is referring to is, I sent the link from our site here to all my friends I thought I still had that shows that man who's wife committed suicide over her Fibro and lack of good Docs. Why did I send it? Because these idiots keep telling me it's all in my head, grow up, get a life (I get that one about 10x a day...Get a life...don't I wish!! I want MY Life back!!) What the hell is wrong with me anyway? So, I send information for them so they can see it IS real. They don't give a damn. The problem is now that "I" need the friendship, now that "I" am in need, that Friendship Train is one way only.

I don't have drama. I have pain! And idiots who can't understand....I'm sick of them! But for some stupid reason, I sit here and cry over these people. They have treated me worse than dirt the past few weeks, and I still cry for them. How dumb!!

Pamela {please}

I wish tons of love and hugs!

Favorite sites besides MDJunction:
http://www.invisableillness.com
& the Fibro Store at:
http://www.cafepress.com/artisticability

Tami

I think most of us Fibros have lost friends because of this darn thing. Lots of other people, well, they just don't get it! Unless someone can actually "see" something wrong- they tend to automatically think it's in our heads.

Keep that chin up Pamela! You ARE a good person! Just let those type of people go. You might be in chronic pain, but your heart is still there. You deserve to take care of you! And remember! I'm here for ya!

Thank you Thomasann!!

Pamela {please}

I wish tons of love and hugs!

Favorite sites besides MDJunction:
http://www.invisableillness.com
& the Fibro Store at:
http://www.cafepress.com/artisticability

Thank you ladies so much! I already see a Psychologist, she thinks I'm "normal" but have PTSD, and really bad Anxiety/Panic attacks that I need to work through.

Pamela {please}

I wish tons of love and hugs!

Favorite sites besides MDJunction:
http://www.invisableillness.com
& the Fibro Store at:
http://www.cafepress.com/artisticability

Gentle Hugs to all, thank you!

Pamela {please}

I wish tons of love and hugs!

Favorite sites besides MDJunction:
http://www.invisableillness.com
& the Fibro Store at:
http://www.cafepress.com/artisticability

I would have said some very terrible things to her and I mean the kind that would have hit home.

If I was you I woulf forget about these idiots and surround yourself with people that want to be your friend in the good times and the bad. I'm very lucky that my internet friends I have had for the past couple of years are kind and even if they don't understand they would never tell me lol.

I hope that you can stop trying to be friends with people like them. They are obviously not very good people.If someone can't see their grandchildren theres usually a good reason. People can pretend to be who ever they want to be on the net, but meet them in person and it sometimes is nothing like you would have expected.

So far I have noticed everyone here to be down to earth, caring, and wonderful people.I try to get everything about the Fibro out here though so that everyone that comes within ear shot of me doesn't have to hear all about it lol.I feel this is the safest way to get my feelings out without the eye rolling.

I understand that you were there for them and then the minute you need them to be there for you they don't want to try to understand it. I know that must hurt, but remember you have all of us here who understand you and like you fibro and all

Hope I made since, Fbro fog