WOW...Thank you soo very much...each and every one of you. I had no idea I had soo many friends! Well, I mean I did...I guess I just didn't know the strength and hearts pulling for me. Again, thank you ALL! All that posted, all that hugged me and all that sent me pm's...what a wonderful group of friends I have!!  I wanted to let you all know that I am sorry for not posting last night when I got home. By the time I got my crying out and my husband finished shoving dinner down my throat (only for it to come back up...sorry TMI) I was just too shaken up to post. So, here's the outcome so far... Just after the ultra sound tech started the ultra sound, she went out of the room and came back in with another woman who introduces herself as the 'Radiologist'. The radiologist did the ultra sound herself. During this, she kept pointing at things on the screen and of course me...'Miss. have to know it all' had my face pointing toward the monitor myself and was watching all of this. When she got done, she turned her chair toward me and said that there was a quite large cyst that "we don't really worry about"...which I knew and knew that there had to be a cyst because one of the lumps hurt and I've had enough cysts in my lifetime to know what they feel like. She then said that there was something "a bit more concerning" and that I should "prepare myself to see a surgeon". Then she said, Wah, Wah, wah, wah, wah, wah, wah, wah!!! I only heard bits and pieces but put some of them together during the drive home. I remembered that she said the results would be sent to my doctor and she would get in touch with me. She also said that "Most doctors like to get it out right away". I remember something about "especially since there's a little deformation starting on your nipple and changes in your breast tissue". And that's all I can remember! Not fibro fog...just SHOCK! And scared to death I suppose. So, it's now a waiting game for me I guess. The reason I agreed with the on-call to go to this Breast Care Center is because I thought that THEY had doctors that would 'take it from here'...but I was wrong and now I'm back to my doc which I'm not the happiest about. It's okay though...like the radiologist said, I'll be on my way to a surgeon so I won't have to deal too much with my doctor! So...that's about it my friends! My stomach is in knots, my head is 'you know where' and my husband is walking circles. Some of you might know, I'm his first wife and that's because he never met anyone he truly loved and cared about so this is really hard for him. Bless his heart, he doesn't know what to do so he's offering me EVERYTHING!! I finally told him right before I fell asleep (if you wanna call it sleep) to save all of the offers for if and when I have surgery....that's when I'll need it! And, bless all of YOU for your thoughts and prayers! You don't know how it 'hit' me to come home to soo many posts, messages and hugs! I love ALL OF YOU! I'll let you know when I hear from my doctor and what is gonna come next! Oh and like I said, my head is 'you know where' so sorry for not posting this in 'The Lounge'...that's really where it should have been! MY BAD!!  I'll have to be sure and tell a leader about this so I can be slapped on the hand for making such a mistake! Hee~Hee~  Ahhhhhhh...I still have my sense of humor. ~YAY~ {{{{Great Big, HUGE Hugs to you All}}}} ~Suzee~
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Just kidding I really don't want one. They are too much work! 
I know what it is like to sit and wait for results. I think that is the hardest part of dealing with doctors. It takes forever. I just had a mammogram done because I have a lump in my armpit. It is were all the nerves and muscles come together so they don't want to do surgery unless it gets bigger. I have to keep having it checked every couple of weeks. It is hard not knowing and wondering what the heck it is. Its great that you still have your humor 
Send Me your address and I will ship you a 3 year old. He has gone mad . I mean, he is really cute and a nice boy. HEEHEE! He loves to pick up toys and help his little sister. ( ok now I've lost it). I think it is terrible 2's, 3's all the way up to 30's. 
