WARNING THIS IS A VENTING ZONE

Just wanted to apologize for not being 'here' in a while. I haven't been feeling well at all. Since the doc took me off the gabapentin a couple wEeks ago, I have been feeling terrible. The pain has been constant from between a 5 to an 8 all the time. I Have had to go to work, take care of my family and spend three days at a dance competition for my daughter, none of which has helped me at all. I haven't been here, because I didn't want to do what I am doing right now, I always want to be positive, but I am truly worn down and been on the verge of tears for the last week. I don't have an once of strength left, and I just don't feel like anyone around me understands!

I hate to bitch and moan, I hate to complain, I am always the strong one, but I just don't feel like being strong right now.

I went to the doctor today she had all my labs back, and everything looked ok. She is going to watch my thyroid I think, I can't remember... becuase those numbers have fluctuated since the last time, she was concerned because I lost weight, she asked why...not hungry. And she is starting me on Cymbalta. I don't even care if it doesn't help with the pain, if it helps with how I'm feeling emotionally then I'm half way there as far as I'm concerned. She Doesn't seem to want me on pain meds yet...ugg.

I'm just frustrated, and I just want to be me again...

Thanks for listening.

Debbi

I do know, totally 100%

leslie

I know the feeling of 'always being the strong one'....but ya know what???....YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE!! Who gave you that title???!!! I know who did...YOU DID! I did that to myself as well! Nope...aint gonna happen. You don't have to do for everyone when YOU are feeling soo terrible!!

I don't mean to sound rude or come across as 'bossy' or anything. I just want you to know....I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL BECAUSE I USED TO BE JUST LIKE IT!!!!! Not any more...it doesn't happen any more because I made it that way!

Sometimes....ya just gotta say.....what the...

I'm here for you girl...I understand and hey...you can come 'here' anytime for anything. If you gotta 'get it out'...THEN DO IT!!! It'll make you feel better and you'll get a couple of shoulders too!

I'm here...pm me if you want to!

Hope you feel better...take it easy...a day for you!?!

{{{{Fibro Hugs}}}}

I started the Cymbalta, and have actually started to feel a bit better. I figured it would take a while, but I think it may be working, although I am in a zombie like state, and I am very tired an nauseus all the time, hoping those symptoms will pass as my body adjusts.

Sorry I haven't replied sooner, I am never online on weekends, only when I am at work, and wasn't in yesterday as my stepson was taken up to the Childrens Hospital by rescue, a place he is used to seeing, although he has managed to be out of there for the last 6 months. So maybe we can all add him to our prayers tonight? And since we are all going to be praying perhaps we can add in a couple more...for my neice (who I have custody of) and my daughter.

Over the weekend my neice age 18 and my daughter almost 15 took showers one after the other and the older one who was second noticed some creepy guy video taping her with his cell phone through the shower window. We had the police at our house all night and k-9 units tracking for the guy...but nothing.

Talk about a bad few days! Uggg!

But it can only get better from here thats what I am thinking...

Thanks for letting me vent ...again...

My prayers for all will be added. No wonder your feling so stressed you have enough on your plate. I too undrstand the feeling of having to be the strong one. what I have found is here I don't have to be. With th little break I had taken I realized how important it was to have a place I didn't have to be the strong one. So I hope things will start turning better for you. remember you always have us to lean on.

and I do realize that here, which is why I started this venting discussion, for that very reason. I guess I am still afraid of looking weak, and I still don't want to, but I know deep down that I am strong.I have started to show my weaker side, I didn't have a choice really my husband saw me break down on like day 14 of my pain scale being like an 8. He has been much more understanding since.

Thanks for your prayers, I'm sure my family will get through this tough time, we are all very close, and thats what really helps in times like these.

You hang in there. You DO have a lot on your plate. Try and just take it one day at a time. And tell yourself- you can still be there for everyone. But don't always have to do all those phsyical things. The mental stress alone can get you caught up in a fibro flare. So be careful! Then to add physical activities (and I mean, like your daughter's dance competition). These things can just cause more pain to your body.

Just do what you can do. If you feel up to doing it, then do it. Otherwise, see if someone else can be there to support your children at functions. I promise- they really don't care. They just want "someone" there.

Start learning to say 'no' to some things. I know it will be hard. But you'll be better off, for everyone's sake. You know- you're no good to anyone, if you're hurting.

Hang in there! You'll be okay! You sound like a very strong woman!

And we WILL keep you and your family in our thoughts. You're gonna need us. So take advantage of us being here, and lean on us.