( We were turned down by the addoption agencies because of my health) I wish I were 36 again. Best of luck...psk

I just wanted to add my 2cents in here because it's a very touchy and important subject and I do hope that you'll think things through very carefully before you make your decision.

I was blessed. That's for sure! I got pregnant at the age of 18. While ON birth control. Everyone told me not to have the baby. WHAT??? Are you kidding me??? OF COURSE I'm having the baby! A few months before I got pregnant, I had my first tumor removed from one ovary. They also took the rest of that ovary...but left the other so I COULD have kids! Well, it WORKED! At the time I thought it wasn't supposed to be...but boy was I wrong!

After my C-Section, I had soooooooo many surgeries 'down there' I LITERALLY lost count. The last one I had was a complete hysterectomy in my 20's. I had no choice! So, if I wouldn't have gotten pregnant on 'accident'. I'd have NONE!

On the other side of the coin...I AM the 'sick mommy'. Even though my daughter is now almost 18...I'm the sick mom. I'm the mom that can't give rides, the mom that can't work so can't give her EVERYTHING she wants. The mom that's ALWAYS in bed so she a lot of times won't go anywhere with friends, etc., because she doesn't want to bother me while I feel soo terrible so she just stays home instead of bothering me to ask permission (when she was younger). I could go on and on...but I'm sure you get what I'm trying to say!

I'm lucky in the sense that I was dx'd when she was about 9 so I WAS able to ride bikes with her, push her on the swing, take her to 4-H and fair and help her take care of her rabbits and all of the other things mommy's do when they're children are at that age.

So, for me...and I say this AGAIN...'everything happens for a reason' and now I know why I got pregnant when I wasn't supposed to. Because if I wouldn't have...I wouldn't have ANY children but instead, was blessed with her! My Angel!!

It's really a hard decision for one to make! All I can tell you from how MY life is and how it's been...if I knew that I was going to have Fibro and feel the way I do each and every day...given a choice...I would NOT have had any children at all.

Not only because of the 'sick mommy' syndrome but because I am now starting to see things in my daughter that's only a senior in high school, that look like the beginning of Fibro and I can't bare to think that she will suffer like me!

I'm sorry if I came across as being negative. I didn't mean to...I just wanted to share my experiences and thoughts with you so that you could see things from a different point of view.

I wish you the very best!!!