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12/29/2007 05:27 PM

EMOTIONS !!!

cindyloo
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I am so emotional!! It's just hard for me to do ANYTHING without feeling as though I'm going to cry!

Some examples...

I wanted so bad to read the thread about suicide, but your all making me cry, and I can't get through it. I know I need to read it! It's the second time I tried to get through it.

I was laid off from a job, and now my unemployment is almost depleted. And I have no idea how I'll act during an interview! OMG !!!

My cat (Katie) and my husband were running all around, playing (pretty funny to watch! hahaha) Well poor little Katie fell up the steps, I started to cry!! If anyone is able to fall up the steps in this house...it would be her.

I'm taking Cymbalta for almost a month. And I take...uh... a muscle relaxer to sleep.

Is this a problem for all of us?? Or am I special??

Thanx in advance! Cindy

OH I almost forgot! How do I turn off the email, when some posts? I did the "unsubscribe" thing. Did I miss something?

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12/29/2007 05:51 PM
vanshadsyd
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Emotional? I started to cry when i couldnt get the diary to work right tonight. I made a deal with myself to use that diary to live everyday. To vent ... and here i am crying over it when its not working. Oh you not special in this sense. I found a article on the fibromyalgia national web site. you take clothspins and put them on the end of your loved ones fingers for 30 mins. This is soppose to be the closest thing to feeling what we feel everyday for them to understand. You know my husband says he understands but he is so different lately. Emotional? Oh i know emotional. This is my second day on Lyrica i got nothing but more fog. I know it takes more time then this to work but i can dream. WOuldnt be nice to just be fixed. I am an emotional wreck today! I feel your pain!

12/29/2007 06:21 PM
spruce1
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Hi to ya all,

Don't ever be afraid to cry....we deserve to cry. I too have very bad days that make me very sensitive. I'm more emotional then I ever was.Sad !

I'm sure you'll have some good days too, so never give up!!Cheerful

I go to the depression/bipolar sites also. I have a hubby who deals with clinical depression/panic attacks and psychotic episodes. I find that there are many sad lonely people who need to be encouraged. We all do but they need to know people care...and it makes me feel better if I can just say anything to help them or make them feel a tiny weenie better! So don't be afraid to share, eh?

Please have a decent nite if at all possible. Cheerful

Spruce


12/29/2007 07:21 PM
Aunt Rinn
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About this time last year, I was in the same shoes as you in the unemployment situation. I was nearing the max and had been through interviews never landing a job. I felt weird when I was talking to people about a job because I had been unfairly terminated from my last job. Basically, I made some mistakes, but nothing I thought was so egregious to fire me over. Not only that, I had a perfectly clean record at the place and had been there 6 years always moving up. I started as a nursing assistant and was the Facility Account Specialist (a combination of financing assistance, collections, and resident trust fund reconciliation...well, you name it, I had to do it, and volunteered for more with a smile), but any ways...When it came time to try to find a new job, I just felt self-conscious, always feeling like I had to defend how I left my last job and why. So hard! Then, the stress of it all really doesn't help when you have Fibro and find yourself feeling even worse. Feeling like, "how can I even be productive like this". It all starts to take it's toll.

I had to look for so long for a job and finally took one that was "about" the pay range that I previously was making. In all actuality, it was way less considering the job I lost I could have walked to if I needed to and the job I took was 20 - 25 minutes (on a good day) away. I spent more in gas. That interview was the first time that I just said to hell with it. I am just going to go in there and act like it's no big deal. I mean, truth be told, I didn't get the 5 other jobs I interviewed for. The job was necessary though since the end of unemployment was nearing. My past job fighting me the whole way. I was prepared for the magistrate date b/c as a supervisor of another department previous to the business office, I had to defend my employer against a girl that I had to let go. The job I had to "settle" for allowed me to get back into the routine of a job that helped in the Fibro situation. I got to get up, get moving around again, and feel like I was actually important to someone out there again.

After 7 terrible months at that job, my dream job came about. I could go back to the nursing home (a different facility) and work the same job that I was terminated from. Only this time, it's so much easier than the job that I was termed from. So great. So the moral is, just keep trying. It will all fall into place when you are least expecting it. I felt the franticness of "what am I gonna do". It wasn't fun to say the least.


12/29/2007 07:38 PM
spruce1
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Who said "good things happen to those that wait" was right on!

So glad things came thru for you Aunt Rinn! I'm sure with time things will work out for you Vanshad!!!

I tried so hard to work....kept loosing them because of my illness! I tried hard but I finally accepted that it was to much for me. Unfortunately, I had other things I was going thru so it just wasn't physically possible.Sad

Well, I figure my job now is to help my sick hubby and grandbabies!!

SpruceCheerful


12/29/2007 10:10 PM
cindyloo
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Oh please don't tell me it's okay to cry, because I always seem to cry at the wrong time!!! It's so very embarrassing!! And strangers (or coworkers) have no idea what to do, it's awful!!!

I too was fired from a job that I loved!! I was there for almost 10 years, and the...uh... (geez, I can't call her that) You know the one that fired me...we were best friends in school!! That was two years ago!! I think, why would anyone want to hire me?? My self esteem is at an all time low, with this stinkin fibro!! I'm seeing a psychologist, but I just don't understand how that's going to help me? But I'm willing to try!! I have to have some hope, somewhere!!!

Thanx for your story Aunt Rinn!! I had just applied for what I thought my "dream" job was, but I haven't heard anything back. And with the holidays, it would take more time. I was trying to be patient...could you cross your fingers for me!!!

Thanx, for listening!!!

Cindy

Please could someone tell me how to NOT get an email someone posts? My email is over flowing!!Unsure

Post edited by: cindyloo, at: 12/30/2007 00:12

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