Fibromyalgia Support Group

Hi

As far back as I can remember, I have had pain and an eating disorder. In my 20's I had a subarachnoid hemmorage, and since then I have seem to have no ability in fighting these things, right now I can't hardly eat anything normal,or anything at all, actually. I cut myself, I can't go out, I'm in constant pain, I live on xanax, and effexor, I have become so sad, alone and pathetic, my husband of 27yrs left me 3yrs ago because of all this, I am so "funny" in public, I hide it all, but when I get home I just deflate and there is nothing left, If I beleived in Heaven I wouldn't mind dying, but I'm scared of the darkness, people tell me to snap out of it, I gave up on therapy, paying to bitch doesn't really help. I sit here alone in my room, having a constant pity party, how can I stop feeling like such a loser?

I'm sorry you're feeling the way you are. Just remember you're never alone. There is always someone to vent to if you need it. This group is a great group.

I'm just so tired of complaining....

I can relate to you and the idea of hiding how you really feel. Do you have anyone to talk to? It sounds like you have a lot on you plate. Living with chronic pain is not easy. You have many friends here on the forum that can relate to that. I know that we are only friends by way of a few keystrokes on a keyboard, but is really much more than that. We do care about one another. We feel for one another because we walk in the same shoes. We live the same life. We experience the same heartache. Please, when you are lonely. Reach out to one of us. Let us help you or direct you to someone who can. Cutting is only temporaty relief and causes permanant scarring and can be very dangerous. Therapy takes longer for some people. I am hoping that you will give it another try.

Your friend,

Sandi

Hi, thanks for the note... I have been in therapy for over 10 years, I have been hospitalized 3 times, and even had electric shock therapy for the depression, I gotta say that I know that all of you are suffering too, I certainly don't feel that I am worse off, but it just seems between the money, the pain, the weight, and the feeling that I have failed everyone, I dunno, don't know how to discuss it without whinning, sorry.

Hey honey...I'll bring the cheese, YOU bring the WHINE! Don't be sorry...that's what we're her for. Let it all out...we understand and we KNOW how you feel! There's no doubt in my mind that this group will help you to feel better. Maybe not pain-wise, but in other ways. Hang out for a while, post away and let us be here for you as you will be for us!

**Keep your chin up**

{{{{Fibro Hugs}}}}

Please don't apologize. I've been trying to be strong for sometime now. I have many days when I wonder just how much longer I can keep living like this. But I have a family who needs me and I waited to long to have them in my life, so I do what I can to keep going. But I've had to convince every dr I have that I won't hurt myself. It is really, really tough.

Other than that I can't say anything else that hasn't already been said. There are such wonderful caring people here. I know none of us are actually there with you, but know what we're here when you need us. Please keep trying to get the help that you need. You obviously still have the drive to keep going and survive or else you wouldn't be here seeking out comfort and support. Keep that in mind during the darkest moments to help pull you through. I no longer live day to day. My new mantra with fibro has been to live hour by hour. Babysteps...that's what it's all about. We're here for you every step of the way!

Thank you all for your thoughts... Although I hate the thought of anyone hurting as much as I do....It's nice to know that maybe I'm not alone after all.

No sweetie you are not alone.