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Zahc Posts: 618
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09/15/11 Dear 'PrincessButterfly', I would have to tell you --dear--in all verity I KNOW exactly how your are feeling; the past, two days, have been remarked by pain so incredible, neverending, and non-specific, that, I am frankly at a lost how to deal with it. I have zero energy, and cannot seem to orbit far from the bed; while I am up, I drag around the house, really quite unable to get anythng done, and so, dear 'Pricess', I simply declared to one and all, that today, was going to me a 'ME Day', even though I did get a lot of nagging business out of the way on the telephone; as I am on oxygen, the MS contin ER seems to make it difficult to breath, but I hardly care. I've sighed, cried, and de-cried every thing arone me; usually, dear, I am a lttle more than a whining, self-centered, withdrawn and surly bitch, but, I hardly care. I announounced such a day earlier, and dear friends have cooperated, leaving me largely alone ( with my poor dog, who just cannot understand why Daddy can't get down on the floor and play ). To say I hate this is an understatement, So I can readily understand that boiling point at which you suddenly boil over,and scream to the Heavens for something, anything; It makes of me a rather small,and mean-spirited person to say that when I feel this way, I feel as though my life is being forcebly taken from me, one atom at a time, and, please forgive me, as I apportion blame to nearly everything, also get quite put out with my God, and, while pleading for some sort of relief, mention rather snottily to him that--after all, my name is NOT Job, and that, I am neither am sterling example of temperenece,patintince, stoiosm, and no one seems to give a royal damn as to my conditiom, or, to my setting any kind of exapmple. I just AM, and find that it is not emough. 'Zahc |
