WandaLynn, that homeschooling incident was a whole other story that snowballed into something absolutely horrible. Many Christian women who hadn't even met me already "knew" about me. I think I must have come across as a weird person or something. All I had been trying to do was create social opportunities for my kids. The other lady was so angry at me for planning "too many" field trips. She wanted a lot of attention on herself and wanted to create more of a corporation than a group for social outings. It turned into something ugly and a lot of people who I thought were my friends ended up ostracizing me. It was beyond painful and it only gave my husband reason to call me crazy and tell me that I was just not meant to have friends. just horrible. Fortunately, we found other opportunities and it worked out ok for my boys, but that was one of the most painful 2 years of my life. I am sure it had something to do with what was happening in my marriage, but other people could not know. They probably saw my face and didn't know what it was or what was wrong with me. I'm just guessing.. I just know we were poor (so we didn't fit in with many of the wives whose husbands made good livings). Anyone who DID come to my house probably gossiped about it, because it was always messy - I could never get support from my husband to make it decent for company. We went a few years with no carpet, just concrete. We went a long time without a fence. He had his junk cars sitting in the back yard. We looked like poor white trash. AND THAT IS NOT WHAT I AM!!!I have a college education and I WANT my house to be clean with no junk in the back. It is incredibly difficult when I try to make it nice and I am constantly battling with that. I am not talking about a fancy house. I am talking about keeping my house nice and clean and pleasant. I'm getting started on that now... It is just one battle after another battle after another battle... He doesn't see it. He puts his dirty socks and underwear on the living room floor and it doesn't phase him. He puts his greasy pants on the living room floor and it doesn't phase him. I JUST CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE. DOES THIS SOUND LIKE A PRINCESS GETTING EVERYTHING SHE COULD POSSIBLY WANT???!!! Post edited by: unafemina, at: 03/12/2012 01:23 PM Post edited by: unafemina, at: 03/12/2012 01:26 PM |
