Phew! Thank you. I was concerned. I can be a little blunt. I'm sorry that your abuser put you through that. I call it gas lighting. They like to make us think that we're the abusers, and they like to make you think your crazy and maybe we're just making it all up in our head or blowing everything up out of proportion...but in reality I think we're underestimating the problem. Once I finally got away from my abuser, it was like a supernova of light and energy and mental clarity. You know I had to go on anti-depressants to cope with being in a relationship with my abuser. And there was a ten day period where I didn't have them and I had these crazy thoughts that I never would have had even before I started taking them. So I went back on them. Well then about a two months after I left my abuser, I ran out of my anti-depressants again...and oddly enough, this second round I did not have those crazy thoughts and I realized I actually didn't need them anymore. Anyways, I know thats a bit off base, but my point is that you'll see so much light after you've healed. Even while you're healing, the beauty of freedom is eradicating. I have to say that I actually feel more confident about who I am as a person now than I did before I even met my abuser. I hope your abuser trips on some bleachers and incidentally loses his balls. Thats what they get for putting us through hell. "Well behaved women rarely make history!" |
