Emotional Abuse Support Group

The men who are abused in this world are more in hiding and denial. They are embarrassed to be toppled by a woman, and usually are afraid to complain about their abusive mothers. Unfortunately, my ethnicity accepts abuse as a part of family life and here in America, 75% of the time, its women that are abusing men. Its SO bad in my ethnic group that these women actually discuss strategies on how to further enhance they abusive behavior towards their husbands and their children. I am so utterly disgusted. Here in CA, we have a bad name as an ethnic group because such a large proportion of our population has mentally abusive behavior towards the public. Its at such a scale that other ethnic groups stay away from my ethnic group for this sole reason.

Back to me. It is a miracle I am such a kind person and so strong minded to be able to be a productive member of society. I am hellbound on not letting this ruin my life but I have to say, I have deep seated feeling of disgust when I remember my mother. She is probably the single most evil woman I have ever encountered in my life. She has committed so much emotional violence towards me, I honestly think the world would be better off if she was in jail. I am heartbroken and motherless. I fight the negative thoughts of her abusing me every single day. Its been 3 years now and I do feel a lot better, but I was a total wreck for the first year and a half after leaving my abusers. I know to never go back but I am a human being and I do have fantasies of a good mother/son relationship that will probably never happen.

I wanted to state my position because I can spot abused men from a mile away at this point in my life. I do see a lot of them. I even see 10 year olds with their face in their hands and a look of pure despair. I saw one boy who was sitting out on the curb and a very ugly, fat, broken down lady came out with a look of pure death in her face and made a mockery out of the boy in public. I can totally relate. Its a sad feeling.

These people are so antisocial and full of self hate, they cause misery upon those who they deem to be well rounded human beings. They get extremely jealous and want to ruin it for you. I have seen my mother. She doesn't say much if she is talking to a drug addict or some kind of loser but if you walk in as a fairly well rounded, good person, she will unleash wrath upon you.

Its not just women who get abused, and no, men don't always pass on the family tradition as some might think. There are a lot of good men who just accept it, leave the situation and pray to God to heal and live a normal life. I am one of those men and I am on the right track since leaving my abusers, but its a struggle and the scars run very deep.

I do all I can to keep myself fulfilled but I wouldn't say I'm afraid of death. At least in death, there is no pain. I'm not suicide but I'm just saying. Thoughts of mother looking at me in disgust and saying "DIE.... DIE.... DIE......" are extremely painful. So I'm sure many of you understand what I am saying. I just hope time will eventually help me as it has so far. I hope it gets better though.

Thanks for reading this. Feel free to comment with anything useful.

Have you ever gotten counseling?

That being said, today my mother calls me from a different phone number knowing I'm going to pick up. I always expected this to happen. I knew she would call and say something gentle like, sonny dear or something. That day just came today, while I'm in the middle of a heavy duty workload. I hung up the phone and received a nasty email on how stupid she was in trying to "help" me with something on the phone. She went pretty crazy in the email in an attempt to make me try to explain myself, yet again.

At this point the madness and sadness hit me again. I called a friend to discuss it but the fight is my own as I discovered long ago that nobody can really help me besides a therapist of some sort. I struggled for about 3 hours at my workplace. People saw that I was a bit upset, and I blamed it on the workload.

Its tough, but I didn't respond any further to her emails. Its funny how she says, sonny dear, and this same woman has been caught trying to poison me with a hot dose of chemicals in an attempt to fry my brain. Its funny how she has mysteriously forgotten that I literally caught her red handed. Otherwise, it was a 7 year onslaught of horrific mental abuse. She's done a few other illegal acts.

If shit hits the fan, I'm getting a restraining order. I just feel bad naturally as it is my mother and don't want to do it unless it is absolutely necessary.

This miserable witch is destroying other people since she has a void in her life. I was her vice and now she targets others around her. I have heard their difficulties but these others once stepped aside and watched as I was being torn apart. I cannot help them.