She has ruined my life for the last time, I am so determined now that I am going. Its my wedding aniverary on the 10th and I don't plan to be here then. I don't know whats going to happen, I don't know how I am going to do it. I have a week to make every phone call, pack everything I need then I am gone. She has ruined my life for the last f'king time. When I leave I will call the police and tell them everything, I will tell social services everything, every little detail. Even if it doesn't go to plan, I am going to rip the life my wife knows away from her. If she can feel, she will feel my pain and everyone else will feel my pain. I am soooo determined. If people I love aren't there for me, thats the way it is. I now know I have to do this for myself (and kids). Mentally I cannot put up with this for another week, let alone another year. I will try to keep you updated as best I can. Thank you all for your support and sorry if I sound bitter, angry, upset, but I am. "I thought the morning would heal me
but every things changed, every things changed
I thought tomorrow was easy
but now it's today, now it's today
and i feel caught like a cat in a box
clawing to escape" - Morningwood: Cat in a box. |
