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islandarab Posts: 1
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hi, i am new here, and i have a real problem, i am bulimic. i am so bulimic it is hard to imagine my life any other way. i have been bulimic for a long time. i eat and throw up constantly. several times a day. huge binges of extra large pizzas, 10 double cheesburgers, footlong subs, you name it i eat it, and i am successful at not gaining a pound which makes it even more satisgying for me, but its a real problem. my bulimia has resulted in numerous negative effects socially, health wise, and mentally. i have even gotten into trouble with the law because of this, stealing food! i can spend hundreds in a week or two and nothing to show for it! i lie to my friends and family,i eat and eat in my room and keep gallon size ziploc bags to throw up in when my roomates are home. its like a big joke that i have against the rest of the world, as if i am secretly getting away with something. yet the realization is i am playing a joke on myself......i tell myself over and over again i need to stop this, i need to stop! i guess in my own mind i have gotten a lttle bit better because before i weighed 98 pounds now i weigh 101. i know i must gain more but i tell myself i am healthy because of my potassium i have to take, due from vomiting frequently. so i am trying to be healthier i rationalize my all fruit juice and bowl of yogurt i keep down everynight before i go to bed. i know this is out of control...anyone who gone through this? Post edited by: islandarab, at: 03/10/2010 01:48 AM |
